Seigunfrei comes into view as I walk, and with him finally being in my sights, a firmer smile comes to my face. One that will hopefully remain there without faltering at all, even as the pain in my cheeks seems all the more pronounced as I smile. Thankfully, the ecstatic joy I feel when I see such a pure and rich aura of chrysoprase green makes it all the better. Magic that makes up his form and the air around his body.
"Well, well, look who it is," he says, his aura shifting as he smiles, notices me, and stops. His arms open up as I pick up the pace, and I leap into his arms. We spin around vigorously, the tips of my points skirting along the hard ground as I try to plant them again. My face moves up, and I linger in the proximity of how close we are. I make the moves to kiss him, but it's so brief and uncalled for that I find myself leaning back, my internal façade cracking up with disgust.
"It's rather coincidental that I found you here, I was just looking for you." I tell him, leaning in close to his chest so the planes of his muscles and the locks of my hair can hide my expression. My utterly despaired expression, one that holds firm in the secrecy of our current intimacy, even as he huffs away with amusement.
"Unfortunately, I will have to hold off whatever it is you want, got to go talk to someone first." he explains, releasing the enwrapping grip he has on my body. I keep my hand firmly connected and laced with his, my face shifting to tell the lie that I 'very much enjoy' this.
I... I... I quite enjoy... It's nice to hold a hand that's not so big it engulfs mine. One that's not so absurdly hard because of all the chitin plating, either. His is big enough to be a man's hand, but not so big as to hide mine fully, and it's soft. Soft with flesh and tender... Tender lo... Ve... Soft and tender.
"That is fine, I have all night to get what I want out of you." I shrug, the words coming out quite weak with how forced it all is. My mouth is stupid, inconsiderate. It says things I don't truly believe, and it's the one thing about me that my heart can't just wrestle about. The mind is supreme here.
"You want to stay around mine again? By Mighty Jhrarda above... I knew you aelenvari had a thing for the tender and physical, but you might as well just move in with me at this point!" he bellows and laughs, a grin forming on my lips as my eyes scream the opposite. My tail flicks around, lingering on his lower half and teasingly prodding at the rim of his trousers.
"Am I perhaps detecting an offer for me to stay with you for as long as I live?" I coyly go, hating every word of it despite the grin remaining and my tail slithering closer to his tender parts.
A light chuckle escapes him, and he shakes his head, "Even if I wanted, they would not let me. The Council for Student Dorm Distribution, that is. You are a potential student for Oddity House, after all. Meanwhile, with me, I am an enrolled student of Exceptional House."
A genuine smile comes across my face... Good. I can't stay with him. There will always be the choice of saying no and stopping myself from coming. Still... My free hand comes up his chest as he pridefully puffs it up, as is his right as a member of Exceptional House.
It's a petal's mentality, and one I can inherently respect given it means he knows his place. This Academy... It is a place for building confidence to a degree that lets people reshape the world. Be it either in the big industries of commerce and politics, war or even in things as simple as a bakery or a medical room. Regardless of my conflicted heart, I do truly like this about Seigunfrei, he commands himself as a petal would in my native culture. Convergently, he is so similar to what I have left behind.
He understands what and who he is, and has no problem showing it off... A fine petal if he ever were one of my kind or had moved to stay within a flower or a garden-mont, should he be allowed.
"So even if I were to successfully enrol, I would not be able to stay with you?" I dare to ask, my smile only growing wider as he shakes his head.
"No, afraid not. However, there are no rules against you just staying with me each night so long as you don't move into my dorm. It's a funny technicality, but, one that acknowledges that we are young people. Young people have intimate relationships, even if they're not always romantic and cheaply and shallowly sexual." Seigunfrei clarifies, squeezing his locked hand tight, and my hand squirms in his grip under the pressure. It's a nice pressure to feel, given the context... And I hate it. It's not Nin's.
"It's an issue when you remove the obstacle of transiting between dorms. But fine when I keep that particular issue in place? Such a strange system." I say to him, bemused and amused at it. Yet, for all of what I speak and say, my mind is filled with sighs of relief and loud thanks to the divine above. Gods and goddesses above, am I thankful!
I'm so very glad that there's something to keep my intentions with Seigunfrei in check...
"Something wrong?" Seigunfrei picks up on, clearly too much and too many of my thoughts spilling out into the open. Years of emotional control and the difference in species are not enough to hide it entirely, I suppose.
His hand reassures me again, squeezing harder. Not harshly, far from it, but the worry it speaks is unwelcome, even as I appreciate the gesture on a fundamental level for what it is. Given what it is intended to do, and for whom... Yet...
I shake my head, clearing my thoughts and answering his question at the same time. My mind latches onto a safe details. His mastery over his internal-magic is so wonderful. He doesn't have to be cautious while touching me, unlike Nin-
"N-No, no. I am fine, what gave you the impression I wasn't?" I cough slightly as I abruptly end my thoughts.
"I just asked you a few questions, and you completely blanked out. So, again, you sure nothing is wrong?" he says, and I blink, recognising that I had completely slipped away from paying attention to the words from his mouth so totally. His tone is nothing but genuine concern, and he looks me over, and then towards the direction of Oddity House. No doubt towards my dorm building, specifically, given the circumstances. He can't see the building, but he knows the shape of the problem, and the way said problem chitters.
"Yes, everything is f-fine." I lie completely and utterly, barely avoiding a major stutter. And all it does is make him bring us to a complete stop and pull me closer again.
"Has that osibindah been causing you issues? Do we need to go to the Council of Student Dorm Distribution and get you moved to another building so you are further away from it?" Seigunfrei asks, his voice cold and certain with his offer, though... I can't help but hope that it's an impossible task.
Yet, for all my hopes, I can't help but freeze up in a panic as I hear register what he said. No, no! We cannot! We can't do that at all!
"No, he hasn't done anything. It's just... It's just a little bothersome having to be so close to everyone else when they rightfully confront it." I say, deflecting his concerns off to the truth that the sheer scale of the harassment against Nin does make it tedious. The staff do what they can in the loosest sense of the word, as do the guards. They want to push Nin into doing something rash or vile to justify executing him. But they still have obligations to us all at the dorm, much as they want to balance their abusive inclinations.
"Rough time relaxing there? I guess that explains why you want to come to my dorm so often. It is very far from the osibindah after all." Seigunfrei accepts, for now. His tone simmering to something warmer as the tension leaves him.
"Y-Yeah," I go, and he brings my head a little higher, and he presses his lips to my cheek.
"Alright, then, it's settled. When I am done with what I need to do, we'll head back to my dorm and I'll ensure you have a very relaxing night." he tells me, his glance nothing but suggestive in all the ways I once saw Nin look at me with when he was still human. A mixture of a fake and real smile comes to my lips, my tail waggling away in accordance with it. The memory is so good, but the reality is not what I want at all.
"That will be wonderful, thank you." I tell him, watching as he heads off ahead of me to go and do what he needs to while I trail behind him. My expression cracks increasingly as the details on my face become harder to see... And a heavy sigh parts my lips as my tail comes back towards my hands so I can nervously flutter and tug away at it.