Today I had dream about my first love, and next thing i saw him passing by..
It's not that I was in any kind of relationship with him, I was the only one to be in love, 'one sided love' u know. he was smart, cool and know what his goal was, so i admired him, he was always a mischievous one during last year of my school . Before that I had never got to know about him he was like meteor crashing my little world. I was a kind of person who would not even talk to person that I had not known/ familiar with was ignorant of stuff unrelated to me, it was hard for me to talk randomly with the person I had never talked, n was even happy with myself. my first encounter that I remembered was when we had our one free lecture we all were enjoying ourselves some were singing, drawing, gossiping, it was little noisy so teacher of next class were coming to warn us about keeping silence we would keep silence for 5 minutes and few minutes later again the things would start that's when they had send one free teacher to take over the class and maintain some discipline in class. That's when after the female teacher entered she told us to do some self studies as we were seniors and exams were approaching please maintain discipline after a while all of them were exchanging their seats I was seating on 1st bench ,suddenly one boy came and told me to scoot over for some time,he sat next our teacher was making rounds in class to see all are doing their work ,I was doing my work ,he took my pen and told ," I would give it back to you in a minute, " as soon as teacher passed through our bench he took that pen and starts scribbling on her clothes as she passes by him, it was shocking for me that he dared to scribble on her clothes without her knowing so I gazed over her,she had not even know or had an idea about it, others students were doing the same as she moves and were laughing, giggling among themselves that was the moment that I started to enjoy such stuffs n liked him. from next day onwards I started to observe him.I started to get curious about his next moves , got curious to know what he would do as so, unintentionally n unknowingly I would search for him whenever I could in class.
Later he had joined same tuition classes as me but we were not in same batch ,ones we were told to attend same class as his class their our sir was asking if we would be able to claculate numbers without using calculator in mind so called as 'mind calculation
' and said we may leave after that. he started ,some of them started packing bags,sir stated he would ask 10/15 questions and fastest one to answer would be given rank and also priority to leave class as soon, he starts the question competition all of students started calculating it was little noisy at 1st but got silence as soon as it started, but I had given the answer I was first, i was proud of myself. shocked as well as smug about it, as for first time I was able to give answer fastest among all those intelligent people in that class, I was fascinated by myself that I had given the answer that others weren't able to or had missas little calculation on their part. Sir told correct and started clapping rest followed him , next that I saw was the boy he was sitting across me turned back and complimented me I was shocked to see he was the same guy and I was happy that he had complimented me .I had liked him but had never expressed my feelings for him or even talked much later but still I had started to developed feelings for him.
(present day...)
After so many years I was unable to forget about him ,I had tried my best to forgot about him and some point I had done so. I was suddenly remembered it was like sudden lightning i was liking but also not, it was complicated to define my feelings. so about dream I had seen it was first time that I had seen his face in my dream ,before this dream I was not able to see his face clearly or approach him ,it was just me seeing him from far and overwhelmed by my own feelings.
I was living with my friends and he showed up, he asked how are you and all and when we were crossing paths sometimes I had gone on date and the guy had just shared his feelings for me I was happy but then I saw some letter in one of my roommates hand of him stating, " you had cheated or something like that" it had infuriate me, as I had never done so ,I was rushing to state the facts straight by meeting him . Next my roommate had stopped me and had showed me other letter about his having crush on me ,he was happy to see me again all the moments flooded in my mind and I started crying and I rushed to meet him, and he told me i had always liked you, I had observed you ,I was smitten by you, I was always around you to see you ,I was overwhelmed by my own feelings and that I never told you before.
Then what about the cheating thing in a letter and all, it was just some made up reason for you to meet me, why didn't you tell me before I had liked you too, for a long time. I was just about to hug him and confess but wait a minute is this for real, i pinched myself, is it dream again when have i had recieve such letter no suddenly i started falling down, I sprang up off bed and my lovely dream shattered .This dream made me happy but sad at same time I hope the dream come true ...
Is it true that "first love never come true ",I hope so not .
Next thing that came into my mind was about things about Museum and things that I need to find out .