"Eh? Agwin-kun?"
"Agwin-kun?"
"A-Agwin-kun! y-y-y-your eyes!"
"My eyes?"
Night blooms as all of the Astraea-familia gathers in one table to have our dinner. I didn't know when or how it started but moist started to form and is blocking my vision, water started to drizzle down through my cheek.
Surprisingly, four streams of water starts flowing through my face.
Slowly and infinitely flowing.
"What. . .is this?" I ask while rubbing my eyes and even few snot started to exited out of my nostril.
Thud thud, thud thud---!
My heartbeat is so fast that every of its pound made me screech in pain. . .
"-sama. . .kami-sama. . .Loki-sama" I utter slowly whilst holding my chest, its hurt yet warmth! But painful! distress and fear and longings!
What am I talking about?
Why did I utter that deity's name!? That. . .I don't know.
"Eh?" the girls turned their head towards Kami-sama after hearing my words.
N-no, that's not it!
I wanted to retort, I wanted to say that this is not me! Kami-sama don't hate me! I don't know what is this feeling anymore!
"C-captain"
"G-Gareth-san"
"Riveria. . . .san?"
"A-Ais. . .?"
My mouth started to let go of a few name I am familiar with, but we're not even that close to begin with. . .
No, they're not just familiar, we. . they. . .I am with them just now!
"Uwaaaahhh------!"
Like newly born child, I cried my lungs out, I didn't know what to do. . .I don't even know why I said such thing! Kami-sama will hate me for sure this time!
I'm trying to deny it from the bottom of my heart even though I knew why, I am conscious why, I knew the source where all of this overflowing memory is coming from!. . .
This is the second time but this is first time it happened to have this impact within my memory, brain and heart!
I cannot resist this overflowing emotions that gathers from within. . .these feeling of losing something so precious, the feelings that I cannot return back to where it originally belonged.
Its overflowing like an infinite stram of river! Showering my very being! What is this distant, yet familiarity!? My memory! It's shambling, Ahhh!
I hold my head as it started spiraling!
His happiness, his craziness.
Its trials and tribulation, its empathy, the longing for something, for someone.
Its anger.
Its grief.
Its loses.
When at its on weakened state.
During his helpless phase. Hopeless times. His depression. His fear towards death, towards me.
Even in his last memories. All of them enters my head, like a living photograph trying to engrave unto my very being!
"E-eh?"
This time, I looked at my watery hand and shirt. I tried to stand back up and walk where the entrance is.
I can't control myself anymore! The ladies who are trying to stop me, let go of me and surprised from my sudden words for the second time. . .
"-sama. . .Loki-sama. . .I am here!" But suddenly, those same hands holds me again. Many of them. And this time, all of them.
"Agwin-kun!" As I looked back, I heard the familiar voice, the voice that I swore to protect. The voice that I swore I will one day owned! . . .Kami-sama. . .
"Are you, my Agwin?" She asks while nailed herself from her current position. My tears didn't stop flowing. My emotions are still overflowing but I sure am not insane!
"Kami-sama!" my lips started to form a wave and this time, I'm sure that 'this tears is mine'.
I don't know what to say and only calls her name. The name who always made me relax, bliss and comfortable. . .
"Astrea-sama!" I called out her name. Her name. Again, and again, and again. . .
"Astraea-sama"
"Astraea-sama" My leg started to lift and this time for sure is in 'my own accord', it moved to where she currently is. The hands who are resisting me started loosening.
"Astraea-sama" And this time, I am sure who my goddess was. . .
To never forget this feeling. To identify who I really am! To never forget who my goddess are.
Kami-sama!
I arrived in front of her and hug her with all my might. The ladies. . .I don't know. I feel their bodies too. Their hands, their head. . .I am conscious but I can't control my body. Never heard or see any of them but only Kami-sama alone...they're hugging me along with Astraea-sama.
"H-help me! Astraea-sama!"
I am choking! The overflowing feelings who started out of nowhere, they're all choking me. . .
"-sama. . .Astraea-sama. I don't know. . .what to do! Who am I?" Is the last word I remembered.
But before my conciousness completely return to nothingness, my thought was. . .I am Agwin and not Laventeinn!
Yes. . .that memory who filled mine, unguarded. Was none other than Laventeinn!
You bastard! Why'd you die!?
After all, all of 'his own' feelings ever since I created him using [Alter Reality] at the same time bestowing the skill [Alteration] to altering his self to be a different person. Up until his last moment.
All of them, all of the memory he built up, his personality and all. . .all are blended with my current memory, mixing like a multiple colors creating anew.
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5 Days later. . .
"Shiiiiiii------"
Inside the [Twilight Manor], Loki slumped down her body on the sofa with long and cold breath as if energy slipped past her after hearing the news.
Finn, Ais and Bete as one of the most agile member---lest the others behind who will also retreated from their exploration who supposedly takes for a few months. But because of the sudden death of one of their advance party, their friend, their comrade, all of them doesn't have an energy to work with anymore.
This three mentioned above conveyed all of what happened during their battle unto their Goddess.
Their encounter on a monster from the unknown floor. It might be a 'Monster Rex' type like the psuedo three great quest, so Loki still felt relieve that her strongest children didn't wiped out but. . .
One sacrifice himself for the cause.
And for others to live, he die!
But. . .Loki couldn't help, just covers her eyes with her hand.
Laventeinn is one of the most and unique individual she have, not just because he is a 'prodigy' but also because Loki is already fond of him. Not just her but also to others. After all, he is an important person to reckoned with!
After that, another days passes by and Loki familia spread the news of their fruitful exploration. They successfully break their records and arrived to a much deeper floors and conquer it! Of course, Zeus familia are still the one who holds the dungeon record on 'Floor 59'.
But Loki familia publicly announced that they encountered the monster who might be as strong as the 'three-great quest'. . .the Light elemental Qilin.
Of course the lost of the prodigy that every god envied Loki---the man who only emerged this year, the [Black Lavender]. With the cost of his life, the rest of Loki familia successfully raided the said monster!
Of course everyone believed as they looted the Qilin's skull with its deer-like horn attached. But there is one thing that made everyone---the rest of Loki-Hephaestus famillia---puzzled. . .Where is the corpse of Laventeinn??