Sadness, how do you define that? Is that only an emotion you feel when you are gloomy? When someone tells you something sad? Or is it an emotion you feel when someone parts away from your life?
Actually, all of those are correct. The fact that a person feels emotion is normal.....yet if they feel it too much, consequences would arise.
Excessive sadness causes depression which is bad for a person as it remains for many years and is hard to heal unless the person is proactive. Excess happiness causes people to part from reality, causing negligence in ones responsibilities. Excess anger causes unnecessary damage to other person, running amok is something one must not do, unless they have a screw loose in their head.
Yet, why do i feel nothing every time i kill someone? isn't there disgust in killing?
No, there is not. I kill to protect, not to harm. It is naive, isn't it?
[This is nauseating] A person under the shine of the trio of colored moons said that with a flat face monotonously, this is me by the way.
On my feet were 20 dead bodies of kidnappers i have found at Miruzo City, why did i got here and what did i do here is something that brings us back 3 hours ago.
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3 hours ago
The fairy was now sleeping soundly as the collar that have made her suffer before is now removed from her neck. The owner of the inn and the shrine maiden went downstairs and talked about something. I decide to remain here to guard this little sleeping one, there might be those that searched for her since she was still a slave a moment ago. My map is constantly being monitored by me for any strange activity, and probably to search for all people that is involved in illegal slavery, in which pops out of my map as orange dots and they are countless inside the city.
[This world sure knows cruelty] caressing the fairy's head, she snuggles to my hand and grasps it tightly.
I kind of remember my cat named Butch, a tom, he was quite a man himself back then. Making 5 female cats on our neighborhood to be pregnant....hahahahaha.....he was gone 2 years ago due to old age. He was the best of the best, he also snuggles to me during sleeping time and would constantly wake me up in the morning just to eat early.
[Just how much did you suffer huh....little one?....hmmm?] on my map, an activity suddenly occurred at the west side of the city where the slums are located. 30 blue dots under the tag children are currently being surrounded by 5 groups of red dots with the kidnapper tag on them.
[Tch! To happen during night—] I then slowly peeled off the fairy's grip and quickly wear the IMC pilot suit. I then rushed at the first floor and saw the two ladies a while ago.
[Can you please watch the fairy upstairs?]
[Wait! Why did you know there was....wait!] (Marika)
I then quickly rushed outside and nimbly arrived at the roof of the inn, my sense are so sharp that i can even hear the mutterings of the nearby bar, the sound of the cats' mating call on the distance and the sound of the person snoring on the nearby building.
I then deployed 5 plasma drones and made then rush to that place first, i had them spread widely and they are 40 meters up in the roofs of the buildings here. They will do. I also had them activate their Cloaking Device so that anyone would not notice their presence up on the night sky.
[Kidnappers huh...they sure have guts to do it inside the city]
I then took out a trusty R-97 Compact SMG, this one has the highest firing rate and ammo capacity at the game, it is true to say...compact since it had a small frame and the weapon just works like the Kriss Vector back at earth.
Attaching a holo-sight for increased aim accuracy, i then sling it to my side. It is pretty lightweight and is easy to carry around.
The path to where the spotted kidnappers are is quite a bit busy, so as a detour, i used the roof as a medium for traveling faster.
[I have been running here for days, damn son, the roofs here sure are durable] not a single slate was dropped nor broken, this means that the roof material is one heck of a durable one.
[Heave...Ho!] jumping to the other roof, the belt thrusters then did their job of providing a strong burst for a secondary jump to happen, allowing me to make that 10 meter long jump to look like child's play.
[Why am i so elated tonight?] I can't help it, it seems that my heart is too excited. Did my sanity got loose somehow? Or did it got changed ever since i arrived here at Zannyl? Nah. I should just accept it as that.
Throwing a pulse blade, the usual small scale surface sonar then resonates in both my view and on the map, revealing the enemies figure, as in how they look.
Stopping at the nearest hight point, i then made the plasma drones to scatter and stay put at some of the potential running and fleeing spots nearby. Ensuring that the kids are safe, i then prowled and landed on a nearby alley.
[Hehehehehe, with this, we will now be rich boys! Kuhahahahaha] (??) A disgusting laughter came from a fat looking guy with a nasty grin plastered on his face.
I am not body shaming, but hey! He is too goddamn fat for his figure! Let us label him as lard for now. The ones nearby are only crooks that have been recruited recently so their battle prowess is small, i kind of wonder why these guys would kidnap kids and sold them to be slaves.
[Mah, there is no hesitation anymore]
*Bang!* the first shot from my R-97 compact SMG was accurate, it hit a guy 50 meters away in the head. The others then began to panic, including the kids....kind of felt sorry for the panicking. But....now i know.....it seems that i have this sadistic side of feeling joy every time i can imagine my enemy's panicking state or their hopeless faces.
The nearest guy was then kneed in the face...of course by me.
[Oryahhh!!!!!] the belt thrusters did the job of propelling me to that guy and knees him straight to the face...
[Bufuooo!] (??) crashing on a nearby garbage dumpster, he then became unconscious.
[Now then....gentlemen....it seems tonight sure is a good night.....and a good bye]
*Pratatatatatatatatatatatatatatatatattatatatatatatatatatatata*
Bodies being turned to beehives in a matter of seconds have began to show up, the SMG's performance is so good.....this was one of my favorite.
[Uhuh, where are you going fellah?] a lanky looking kidnapper with a petite frame scrambles as he tries to flee from the carnage....
*Pishaaa!*
Only to be killed by one of the plasma drones just waiting nearby. There was still one guy alive, it was the fat guy from earlier. Talk about a thin strand of luck, it sees that the bullets have not hit any of his vital organs. And he was now crawling to flee...
[Hiiiiiii!!!!!!] (??) Stepping on his hand, i then kicked him back to the original location.
[So how is it? Being tortured as you're still alive?] (??) Sitting on a crate, i then faced the remaining guy alone. The children awhile ago are now ghastly glued on the spot, some fainted while some were meticulously watching the exchange between me and the lard.
[So first things first...what is your plan for kidnapping these kids?]
[....eh?] (??)
[Huh?! Da fuq did you just say? Do they say Eh?! in this kingdom as an answer to a single fucking question?!...*karchak!*....now....let me repeat the question. What will you do with the kids you have kidnapped?] A Hammond P2020 was cocked by my hand and was aimed at his greasy and sweaty forehead.
[....we.....planned....] (??)
[Go on...go on]
His answer has began to slur as i interrogated him....
[We plan to sell them and make them into labor slave—*Bang!*....] (??) The pistol then clearly hits a headshot as the lard stops talking, a bullet has penetrated his head and thus his long corrupted life had now ceased at this day and at this night.
Coincidentally, the area became too silent as the clouds dissipated and the three moons appeared and shone through the night.
[Well....talk about a accidentally snatching the trigger. I need not to hear it anymore] I then slowly went to the kids who are also afraid of me, talk about excessive violence. It seems it was their first time seeing that much carnage, i now felt sorry for them.
It seems that some of them are wounded too, so to earn their trust, i took out 20 healing potions and just started to make it roll to their position.
[What....is this?] (??) said the nearest boy who picked up the potion.
[That is a healing potion kid, make the injured drink it. Also i will warn you that the potions i gave are medium class grade healing potions. If you only have scratches and light wounds, only sprinkle it on the area. If the life is in danger, then let them drink it] turning my back at them....
[Wait!!!] (??) one of them, a young girl that was a beast-kin under the red wolf tribe stops me and yanks my belt. She is the only brave one who approached me.
Kneeling to get me to her height, i then pat her head and decide to ask.
[What is it?]
[Um.....um...thank you very much...if you didn't come.....we would have been made into slaves...*sobs*...waaaaaaahhhhh!!!!] (??)
[Good grief, you're a big crybaby] patting her head, i then made her calm by drinking water from my canteen. I also let the others eat, though it was only baked potato.
[So where will all of you go now? Will you still return and live within the dangerous slum? ]
That question alone made the children ponder...maybe i should have not asked. But they need to make their decision here and now since I cannot just let them be in danger once again.
[We...we actually want to go to the church and serve there....there is also the orphanage where we can live, eat and sleep peacefully even with the work the church would put to us] (??) It seems that the red haired wolf girl was their leader as she was the only one doing the talking for the past minutes.
[I see....then that's your choice. I won't interfere with it, but remember....don't be too brave, sometimes you got to act cowardly....then will you know how to act accordingly] Even though i grinned inside the helmet, my emotion was still expressed through my calm voice.
[Thank you mister....] (??)
[Farewell kids....may the gods shine their blessings unto you] I then quickly dashed at the roofs as the plasma drones have started to rendezvous to me.
I then safely arrived at the inn, and sneaked to where my room is by entering the window.
The fairy was still asleep and was now breathing calmly.....what is this feeling though? It was as if i had a kid myself? I then undid my suit and changed to my casual clothing.
[.....munya munya...] (Lushea)
Lushia was the name of this fairy princess lying at my bed. I still haven't told the owner and the shrine maiden about that. Probably that is for tomorrow, drowsiness attacks me so i then lied on the floor beside my bed and slept.
[*Yawn~* it sure is one hectic day for me....] closing my eyes, my consciousness then drifts as my dream slowly arises.