Book Four
Volume 14
Ch. 198 Love
Pov.
-Cana-
Eyes of Selene… So cool!
I kick my feet, reading all about them as Lia eats her gummy bears, sitting on my head
Kara made this book for me, because there's zero information about them out there
The first faze is 'New Moon'
My pupils dilate and absorb all the light that reflects off my target of focus. But At night my vision is perfect
So it isn't so much that his fist was literally slowing down. It's that I could process more information the more I focused on his fist.
That means I need to get faster to be able to react and take advantage of this perception. I snap my fingers
Darkmoon
First Phase…
I twirl around.
In this form my hair turns a really dark blue.
It's so dark it almost looks black.
Same with my lips.
I also had a small crescent moon beneath my ear with a cute little star.
The outfit itself was a black bra with gold sprinkled stars. And a long clear black cloth that fell over my panties, covering my rear but leaving the frontside and most of my bare thighs exposed
…
3 months later
"Hya! Wa-cha!" I shout and jump around.
I lead with my foot, trying to get him from above as Throfinn attacks him head-on
"Shoot!" I missed again
I look up
I glare at his hand, heading for my face.
It slows the harder I focused, but my body was frozen even as it drew closer to my face.
Dang it.
I must not be fast enough.
He grabs my face and swings me around making me kick Thorfinn in the face before tossing me aside
"Sorry! I'm sorry!" I help him up
"Damn it Cana. He's toying with us…"
"Heres your staff, Cana." Kara tosses it over
"Why? What for?" I pat myself down
"You're too short, you would do better with it."
"Why you…" I squeeze my fist.
"And you're still holding back. Just like you did with that Danger Beast."
"Yeah, Cana." Thorfinn teases.
"Hmm" I frown
"Youre no different, Thorfinn. You're only using about 70% of your full power."
"Whoa…"
"But you, Cana. You're only using about 30% of your magic. You aren't just holding back. You're tying your hands behind your back."
"W-well I can't help it…" I sigh
"Your empathy is going to get you killed one day. Stop worrying about those around you, much less your opponent. Let your instincts determine what's necessary and what isn't."
"Instincts…" Thorfinn huffs, clearly understanding better than me.
Kara watches him. Despite speaking to me I can tell he's eager to train Thorfinn himself.
"Try again." Kara steps back. "Listen to the world around you. Feel the energy pouring into your flesh."
I sit down and watch carefully
"You mean like Cana's Magic?" Thorfinn looks at his hands
"The imperial arms in this continent and hanging around Cana has exposed you to magic energy."
…
"Does that mean you only have magic too?" I grab my toes, rocking back and forth
"No, not exactly."
"Then what is it?"
"I don't fall into any category. Let's keep it at that."
"So what the hell does this Magic do?"
"Anything from creation to oblivion."
…
I listen intently. After training the rest of the day Kara and I went for some hot dogs.
…
He finally came back to me.
He's trying, I know he is…
But he's also battling with Himself.
He refuses to submit to anything
Not my Love
And not even his Despair…
But he will have to pick eventually…
…
Pov.
-Kara-
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My insides are burning, eyes melting out of my sockets
My hands nailed to the beam behind me and the flames crawling up my back as I hung here and…
Burned Indefinitely … Healed Indefinitely.
But why?
Why am I here?
To Conquer the Heavens…
I raise my gaze
Or could it be…
To Inherit the Stars?
-
"Yummy." I wake up to Cana's beaming smile, happily kicking her feet as we watch the ocean on the pier
…
I could still feel the indefinite flames of hell that slowly consume me.
…
She gulps, dropping a piece of bacon into my mouth
After she finishes the rest of her hot dog she chugs a bottle of water.
I follow her to our tent on the beach as the full moon lights up the ocean and the waves clashed against each other
We sit just outside our tent to take in the sight
The breeze was cool. The night was beautiful, but all I could think about was how much I…
…
Want to burn…
But she won't let me.
I'd have fallen thousands of times over if it weren't for her…
I tried again to push her away. Only this time she let me.
Before, she clingged onto me. Now, she waited patiently to return.
…
And I did. I'm here with her now because I want to be with her more than I'm willing to admit.
…
She said it.
Nothing can tear us apart. Not even my Pride.
…
True love…
Is that what I've been searching for?
…
Who can say that I found it?
…
Who can say that I deserve this?
Is it even real?
I can't bring myself to believe it is.
It makes every second I'm with her so painful.
How do I tell her these things?
How do I tell her I care what she thinks about me? How she feels about me?
…
"Mmm… Kara, we're outside." She moans as my tongue flicks her g-spot
This is the only way I know.
Everytime I try to speak to her the words get caught in my throat.
So I resort to the only way I know how.
The only intimacy I've ever known
"S-slow down Kara…" she quivers
I pull my head back as she squirts all over the sand.
I climb on top of her small and fragile frame
I slap her clit with my cock, soaking the head with her fluids
I wrap my arm around her neck, bringing her up and arching her back as I ease myself inside.
I hold her belly as it bulges with my cock pecking her cervix.
I slid my tongue into her mouth.
She whimpers and moans, sucking my tongue as she holds the back of my head.
I've tried so hard to replicate this feeling.
To no avail.
She's the only woman to make me feel this way.
Not even Isis.
Not Rhea.
Not anyone.
And that's what I…
Fear the most.
The day I won't have her.
The day I can't feel her
See her smile
Hear her voice.
Even if she were a goddess like Rhea.
A Titan like Isis.
The day would come.
That I'd lose her
…
I'll lose everything again.
…
I'm crucifying myself the longer I remain with her.
…
I can't bring myself to stay.
Even more so…
I can't bring myself to run.
I'm a coward through and through.
…
We wrestle all night
Waking up only after the water washed us away.
"Wah! So cold!" She cries "pfft! And salty!"
Cana rolls into me as I sit up
She shivers against my chest. Her nakedness glistened with the rising sun.
"Hey! Get back here!" She hurries to catch our tent
I lay back, unbothered by the freezing water and watching her rear jiggle as she jumped through the waves trying to catch our tent.
She shrieks and cries. Not even thinking to use her magic even as she struggles to drag it out of the water.
After getting it a safe distance from the shore she crawls inside and changes into her favorite short white sundress and a floppy straw hat.
I follow her inside, just throwing on some shorts before setting up an umbrella and laying outside.
I hold her close. She spots dolphins and seals as we eat her home made sandwiches
…
We made out for hours, surrendering to our lust a few times before heading back home before the sun began to set again.
Except, we had to travel across the capital to get there. Since she refused to teleport.
Of course, the capital itself was as de praised as ever. Baring some semblance to what's really going on inside my head. Reminding me of that despair and cloud of death that follows.
That which she helped me forget for the weekend.
Even then, she laughed and giggled in the face of all this dread.
She'd quiet every so often that we ran into something unsightly.
But that pity would be overshadowed by a beaming smile without missing a beat.
All I could feel was more guilt and repulse
…
"How can you smile, Cana?" I cut her off mid sentence as she told me how she saw Thorfinn playing with Lia.
She stops swinging her feet as the stage coach we hitched a ride on shakes and trembles across the rocky side road.
Her eyes darken as soldiers leave corpses of men behind to rot, for the stray dogs while they stuff dead, raped, and dismembered, women, and children into the third garbage truck we've seen today.
…
"Do you see that? Tell me do you don't fucking hate me, Cana…"
I jump off the coach
"I don't." She hops off, behind me.
"You lie." I poke her chest
"I don't. Why would I?"
I open my arms "have a look around, Cana… stop lying tk yo urself l."
"You didn't kill any of those children. Those women… their death isn't your fault."
"You know it is…" I turn away. "I brought this nation to its knees… it isn't the first time either… it's not even the worst thing I've done."
I disappeared off to the isolation of the forest. Only for Cana to follow closely
…
"You aren't guilty of anyone's death but your own, Kara…"
My death?
I don't die.
I can't die.
"And I know you can't… yet I tell you, the only death you ever brought. Is upon yourself…"
I look up at her… what does she know?
"Your soul, Kara. The only person you've ever hurt is yourself. The only person you've ever killed … is yourself."
"You don't know a damn thing!" I shove her back
"I know everything!" She slaps my hand aside…
…
"All the pain you endured… the pain you inflicted… none of it. You aren't guilty of any of it."
"Wh-what?"
"I know everything, Kara. Everything… Everyone. I've seen it all. Your Sister, Mia, Lucy… Ignia…"
…
What is she talking about?
I felt so weak and vulnerable.
My heart sank into my stomach. My knees buckle and I fall back, against a tree
I could hardly breathe
"Lucy… she was with Himiko… she showed me everything…" she falls on her knees between my legs.
I shake my head
"So how? How can you…"
Just as I thought… shes always known the creature I really am.
…
I think back to our weekend together
So why?
Why does she remain?
For so long.
I slayed the innocent, devoured the cosmos.
"Shut up… who are you to speak for anyone?"
"The innocent that were put to sleep… They are living gloriously now."
"They're dead."
"They're Alive. More Alive than us and where they were always meant to be…"
"You don't have to hold onto this guilt anymore, Kara. Because I… I forgive you."
"Our Father, who is in heaven. That you Loathe No More than You Loathe Yourself. Has Forgiven You."
I shake my head
"You don't get to say that, Cana."
"I do, because I know, I've seen the atrocities you commited… but I also saw how desperate you were to hold on to something human, even if the world wouldn't let you…" she brings my hand into her chest
Everything…
Everything I've ever done…
"Let go, Cana." I tug my hand back
"No… Don't push me away…" She cries
…
"Why can't you hate me like everyone else?"
She shakes her head
"Why not, Cana? You saw what I did in Japan. You said it yourself, you saw the atrocities I've done, the Innocent I… how can you let me anywhere near Lia?"
She has to be repulsed out of her mind…
"How can you… Love… Me?"
…
"Because… this Love is not mine to give. But the Love we've inherited since before the foundation of the stars
this love has yearned for you." Her tears trickle onto my hand "so here I am now for you to see and feel for yourself. For you to embrace, the only way this world has let you know and understand."
Cana…
My hand falls into her lap as she brings herself in, her arms clinging to my neck and her legs tight around my waist as she sobs into my chest.
"I'm sorry, Kara… I'm sorry you had to wait so long…"
…
-to be continued