Both of them went to bed as soon as they had their lunch. Hiroshi moved close to Haruki and wrapped his hand around his waist. He was not hesitant about it. A small smile lifted the corners of his lips when he noticed that Haruki didn't stop him as usual.
He slid slower moving his head from the pillow and instead pressed his face against Haruki's back. He inhaled deeply trying to regulate his thoughts and feelings. He had no reason to cry. He should be excited, happy that the man he loved gave him all the support he needed.
However there was something that made his nose sting, made his eyes water and made him tremble even under the thick covers. Haruki said no word, Haruki hadn't asked him, he hadn't even acted curious.
It made him feel at ease that he didn't have to force those words buried deep into exposure. However, there was a need to tell Haruki, to share it with someone. Haruki was respecting his boundaries, he both loved and hated it.
