Hiroshi's finding out about the engagement would mean an end to their relationship. Even if he has to end this engagement, he would still have to get married sometime.
If he still valued Hiroshi, he would want the man in life and if Hiroshi chose to leave, there was nothing he could do about it. He felt his hands tremble. His chest felt tight as it felt as though his heart was gripped tightly in a hand as the sharp claws dug through its flesh.
He leaned against the counter pressing his trembling hand against his chest. He could not understand what the pain was and why he was feeling it. He thought of going to the hospital but he thought of seeing Hiroshi and thought against it.
He met the gaze of the man in the mirror. His skin was pale, he looked tired as though he could get some sleep but the fatigue went beyond that.
The pain was gone in a flash and he showered off the residue of the day.
