There was a reason why Ren trained him to be coldhearted and bloodthirsty. It came down to overcoming his softheartedness. The one that made him accept the bullying was because his Aunt was nice to him.
He might have grown bloodthirsty, left people on the brink of death in the ring but it felt like his true self had no intention of disappearing. Even though that part of himself stayed hidden for so many years, it returned even worse during these past few weeks.
His palm covering his face became wet as the sound of his sobs filled the empty house.
These were moments he hated himself most. He didn't want to be like this. He wanted to be coldhearted enough to take revenge. Enough to be betrayed and seek revenge. Enough to cut off a lover without hesitation. Enough to have no guilt, or at least enough to keep his guilt irrelevant, to silence that voice.
