I lived to find the meaning in existence, and yet, i failed at my only task, it hurts, more than anybody can imagine, even if the task had been set up for me, even if it had been nearly acomplished, i still would have failed.
My existence has no meaning, humans can find something in life, weather it be fun, work, or happiness. the last part is what i lack most. I tried to be kind, but humans were not kind back. I was born like this, why do they hate me? I didn't do anything wrong, right? But they are still running away, like i'm some monster, and no matter what i did, i still would have stayed a monster.
I was kind, but they repayed me in hate. So, i'll burn them, kill them all, this world doesn't deserve me, i'm better than them! But then, why do i lay here... With an arrow through my chest...? I didn't deserve this, please, god, guide me further... I... Don't want to die! Please... Help me...
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Why am i still here? I should be dead...
Wait, am i already dead? I can't be! No! Why... I didn't deserve this, they should die for turning me into a monster!
I will kill them all!!!
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They are screaming, in pain... Good! Let them cry for what they've done! Haha... Hahahaha! So this is what happiness truly means! I never want to let go of this feeling!
They are all dead... the city is destroyed! and i have finaly found my true purpose! This way i'll be eternaly happy!
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I have started my journey weeks ago, i have had nothing to eat and yet i don't feel all that hungry, why is that? Could it be i just went insane after finding my true purpose?! I could ask the towns people from the next town over.
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I have met a strange man in royal clothing, he is taking me somewhere.
Hell, anywhere is better than this! I don't want want to be stuck in fuck knows where for the rest of my life.
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Now i find myself in the khapesh palace, standing before the grandmaster, this has to end soon, and i'll end it if i have to!
Sitting here, by myself within these thick walls of the palace, my mind wandering elsewhere, i have just been crowned as the principle of Emotion, ironic if you ask me.
Being gifted a new power by the grandmaster means more work for me, but at least i'll be fed, i'll sleep well and be safe.
The greatest gift of all.