I am completely immersed in stillness. I'm hesitant to tell them how I really feel. Every time I consider that I might be to blame for who I am, my thoughts try to murder me. Despite my best efforts, I am always the one who suffers the most while dealing with them. 
I could only get temporary relief from my pain by committing violence against myself.

This book is entirely made up of my own, detailed, uncensored unique quotes and venting place.
I wish I knew how to end this suffering, but I do not. 
BPD is a curse, I feel to much when I shouldn't.

"Throw a label at me, Judge me, and twist the story if you must. My heart is pure, my loyalty is solid, my intentions are real and firm toward who I am. No matter how others choose to see me, I know exactly what I bring to the table. I know its value, I don't need people manipulating me into stories I've heard a thousand times, so put that ego down while I'm truly good to you. I wasn't born cold-hearted."


Chapter 114 - I Wasn't Born Cold-Hearted