Seeing Lucca on a daily basis had become the new norm. He was always busy .He was either going to class or headed to his shoot, he was a photographer for that matter. He was always going about his errands with his backpack and camera stand. Whenever he was in a hurry he'd knock at the door and wave, but when he wasn't in a hurry mostly at night or after classes we could have minutes of chatting. At night when it was time to go he'd hug me at first but as time went by he began to give me good-bye kisses. Not forehead kisses or pecks. I was fond of his presence, whenever he failed to show up I'd have some passive depression.
__Where's August? Customers would ask. "I have her hidden in my hair. 'I'm as good as her, I can serve you,' I'd answer them on those bad days. In addition to my family problems I couldn't eat or sleep at night due to too much thinking. I tossed on the bed throughout most part of the nights while the others slept peacefully. In the morning as Anne prepared to go to class that's when I actually wanted to sleep. She would force me up but I guess I'm too stubborn and I cared less about school. I wouldn't submit my projects on time. I guess I lost focus in my education. Due to my difficulties in sleeping a not-so good thought rushed in my head 'sleeping pills' I began with time and the body was used to it so it became week I advanced to three. All my friends would do was complain
Naya, this behavior of taking sleeping pills, disgusts me to the core' August would complain. Whenever I sent Anne to the pharmacy she'd be like "Go on your own, I'm against whatever you're doing.
Obviously I couldn't forget to update my on/off boyfriend Finley on the stupid of things even when I knew what he'd say. He was obviously of the opposite opinion. So just like the others he argued with me. 'You know you don't have to do that, I know I'm a million miles away, but forever I'll be by your side. Whenever you're unable to sleep, just call me. I'll keep you company till you sleep." That was so romantic of him and I promise to bring an end to my behavior but I was an infinite, endless liar and an hourly promise breaker. Every day at around five o'clock I took four of them. After two days of disappearing, he passed by on a Wednesday evening. I wasn't expecting him but the site of him just made me smile loudly. "Heeey! Lucca, how's you, you've been ghosting my girl,' August said as he walked towards me. I was buried in my phone. The mention of just his and I raised my head smilingly. He was right in front of my face.
Hey baby' he said smilingly. 'Hi,' I replied smiling vulnerably with both my hands under my chin. He took my hand and led me out. I clearly saw the smiles on their faces.
-I'm sorry for going missing, but If you let me, I'll make it up,' he said. I looked him up in the eyes. He seemed to be humble, sincere and honest. I forgot he had ghosted me for two days. 'Ok! So what's the plan? I asked. 'Show up at my place maybe half past nine," I told him that I'd try. He said he needed sure replies so I promised to be there. August closes the bodega a quarter to ten and she had agreed to escort me after I told them I was clueless on where he resided exactly. At exactly a half past nine she offered to do as she had promised. Before going they made some crucial fun of me. "Someone's going to get laid, August said. In the morning I'll be waiting for you, you'll tell us if those gym guys have got a good game or they're just hyped, Anne added
He invited me for dinner only, I'll be back before you close,' I weakly defended myself in a low tone. Because they never wanted to argue with me they let it slip and August walked with me to Lucca's place. She rang him; he was in his dark room finishing up with his photography thing. He asked her to wait a little bit he was coming. She didn't wait instead she wished me luck and went away.
Hello there my beautiful soul , he greeted as he closed the door and approached me , hugged me and before I could answer he uttered once more " you look won out is everything okay ?' . I nodded with a faint smile as he held my hand and pulled me to his actual room. Welcome to my humble house?
You live here? I asked as I removed my snickers. "We live here everyone,' he said. On the brilliant white walls he hanged his portrait, one which he held a guitar on his shoulder. Next to the portrait was the mirror. In my head I thought well now I have a type, the guitar type. On one corner was his working table. There laid his PC machine which was switched on, next to it was one of his many photos. He was without shirt just one of the heavy fluffy winter jackets a blind person could literally see his heavy built chest. Below the table was a simple sound system that played some slow song's from the 80's. His black and white carpet went hand in hand with his duvet. His bed neatly spread and the laundry basket at the far end of his bed next to the bathroom.
Do you take your own pictures? I asked as I unhanged the portrait hanging on the wall. 'Definitely not, I have friends who are photographers just like me and they picture me and I edit them for myself
You look cute on this one, I said as he smiled and sat on the couch next to where I sat. What can I offer you, Coffee or hot chocolate? It's a cold night,' ready to stand to go and prepare whatever I'd order
No, I'm fine; I said he insists for some time before giving up. His phone rings and he excuses himself "Can you give me a few seconds; I finish what I was doing in the dark room with my colleagues? He asked and I nodded. I kept admiring his pictures and the one I had unhanged I got into his bed with it. While I awaited him I forgot myself and slept soundly with it in my arms.
When I woke up it was a quarter past eleven. "Hey baby, you slept." As he took the photo and hanged it back. What time is it, I asked. I had a blurred vision and a heavy head. It's a quarter past eleven,' he answered. Fuuuck! I groaned
Is everything okay? He asked and I nodded in agreement as I sat upright and he came sat next to me. Looked me deep in the eye and apologized for taking time to wrap up whatever he was doing.
You do realize I can't go on my own?' I told him. You don't have to go, he said hiding his smile. But I have an early morning lecture,' 'So do I,' he responded smilingly as he moved closer to me. I asked him what he was trying to do and he replied with a low tone "What I've been meaning to do for months."
He kissed me, I took time before reciprocating. I tried to push him away but my little strength and heavy head from four sleeping pills couldn't manage to push him. So he won and kept going and going. He had no idea of my weak body, dizzy head and blurry vision. Soon he had me completely naked with his wood deep in me. I was there producing heavy sighs , I can't really tell if it was because of his big wood deep in my muse me or the pain I felt due to my ulcers that had become worse due to stressing out a lot and not eating.
In the middle of the night, I startled from the nightmare I was having. I was sore in weird places. I turned only to find Lucca sleeping soundly beside me. 'I can't believe I did this again,' I fussed out of unfaithful regrets. He had no idea that he violated me, concent not consent. I never wanted to make a big deal out of it and shit had already happened I decided to finish what I wasn't aware had begun. I slide my hand slowly to his wood and I began to rub or rather massage it softly till he woke up. Babe he said in his deep sleepy voice, Feel like another round? I shushed him with my finger and got on top of him and kissed him. Playing with his tongue and lips that I did softly bite made him wake up. He threw his hands around my ass. I reached for his wood and slide it in through my wet muse. I sighed softly, both my hands on his broad chest. I moved my lower body slowly and seductively biting my lower lip. Rhyming my breathe with how I swayed my body around his body.
At dawn I hurriedly threw my clothes on and left hurriedly after giving a kiss. Anne was already up almost finished preparing for class; August had already gone to open the store. The moment she laid eyes on me she shouted "Rate his bed game on the scale of one to ten," we gazed at each other smilingly before answering "Can I give him an eight because he is not as naughty and nasty as Sidon.
She laughed as she handed me my towel and I took a warm shower then we headed for school.
That day Lucca didn't pass by. I never saw him and he didn't text me at all. I felt like he was ghosting me. Probably all he wanted from me was the sex and now he was avoiding me. He already got what he wanted. So out of desperation I decided to send him a message
Hey, hope you good. I really want to appreciate last night I enjoyed it
He replied with the thumbs up emoji. The fuck! Shameless pimp I shouted in frustration. August sleeping next to me asked what was wrong I showed her the text. No way! She also exclaimed. Anne as well heard us and she woke up, we showed her
'Baby girl , he didn't use you , just assume that you also wanted what he gave and you enjoyed it , he can go to hell for all we care,' Anne said . I really can't tell whether I was being naïve but here words seemed more comforting than anything else. The next day at August's, Anne walked in jumpily pointing outside with her lips moving. She was saying Lucca's name. I wasn't ready to see him so I hid under the counter, he walked in and greeted them as he proceeded to purchase whatever he wanted, paid and walked away
Ouch! That hurt he didn't even bother to ask for me? Where I was maybe. I sat back at the counter stool lost in my thoughts. I clearly recall the eyes they gave me 'that's weird he didn't ask for you kind of eyes' I assumed as if I hadn't seen anything.