"But now we are together." Chu Zhaoyang hugged her tightly and said, "Be good, don't be afraid. No matter where you go, I will chase you. So, don't worry."
Gu Nian nodded, but the more he said this, the more uncomfortable she felt.
Feeling that she was so willful: "But chasing me like this will make you very tired."
"No, as long as I can see you, I won't be tired. So, darling, stay where I can see you from now on, okay? Even if you want me to chase you, don't run too far so that I can see you."
"I won't let you chase me." Gu Nian shook her head, with tears in her eyes. "I won't let you chase me anymore. I will stay with you and never leave. If you throw me away, then I will wait for you to find where I am. It should be easier to find it that way."
"Yeah." Chu Zhaoyang nodded, his throat feeling a little sore for some reason, "But I won't lose you."
"Okay." Gu Nian was still a little scared and tightened her arms around his neck.
She had experienced life without him.
She thought she could live a good life, but now she met him again, had him by her side again, and felt the feeling of having him by her side again.
She knew she couldn't bear to live without him anymore.
Even if it meant death, she would never leave him again.
Chu Zhaoyang felt it, and pressed close to her, letting her feel him, and then slowly entered.
Gu Nian trembled violently, and her lower abdomen couldn't help but shrink inward. Following his movements, she sobbed softly.
"My dear, do you feel it? I'm here, I'm always here, feel me." Chu Zhaoyang's hot lips touched her earlobe and said.
Gu Nian buried his face into Chu Zhaoyang's shoulder and heard Chu Zhaoyang asked: "Do you feel me?"
"I feel it." Gu Nian cried.
"You're so good, I'm always here and inseparable from you. Don't be afraid anymore, I won't leave." Chu Zhaoyang comforted her in a low voice.
Chu Zhaoyang's low and hoarse voice had a soothing and calming effect, and Gu Nian could feel his warmth and presence without any obstruction.
Gradually, the fear in her heart really subsided.
She circled Chu Zhaoyang's neck, twitching, and her shoulders trembled slightly.
Chu Zhaoyang kept kissing her eyelashes and kissed away the tears on her eyelashes.
He moved gently, not just for those wishes, but because of love, and just wanted to comfort her.
Hence the unprecedented gentleness, like a continuous drizzle, like floating in a hot spring.
In the end, even if the offensive retreated, Chu Zhaoyang still stayed in her warmth and did not come out.
It felt a little strange for Gu Nian to wrap her soft body like this, but it also felt unusually intimate.
"When you were young, did you have any random thoughts on this bed?" Gu Nian suddenly asked.
Now that he was here, it felt like he had traveled through time and reunited with his past self.
She couldn't help but be full of curiosity about his past.
"Random thoughts?" Chu Zhaoyang asked lazily.
He held her in his arms, patting her back gently.
"It's that kind of... you know, don't boys become enlightened when they reach a certain age? They will be particularly interested in women, watch movies, pictures, and have sexual partners. They will also be sneaky and take matters into their own hands. Right. I will definitely be looking at photos or something, or in my mind, or in fantasies, or in real life, what about myself..."
Gu Nian was afraid that Chu Zhaoyang would act stupid, so he made a special move.
"Anyway, when I was in school, I could often hear the boys in our class getting together to discuss which girl in the school was there, and they would even exchange websites they often visited, and what kind of novels they had...young women and so on..."
Gu Nian was very curious about Chu Zhaoyang.
His face was ascetic. she wondered if he was like those little boys when he was young and idle. He was inevitably vulgar.
Chu Zhaoyang: "..."
"Say it!" Gu Nian urged.
"Then have they discussed you?" Chu Zhaoyang quickly grasped the key point.
Gu Nian: "..."
It had been discussed, but she didn't dare to say it.
Looking at Gu Nian's reaction, what else did Chu Zhaoyang not understand?
"Do your former classmates have a gathering? If so, remember to take me there." Chu Zhaoyang remembered this incident fiercely.
Gu Nian: "..."
"I asked you first, why does it involve me now?" Gu Nian poked his chest, "Don't change the subject!"
Chu Zhaoyang: "..."
He didn't change the topic, he just focused on the key points.
"Say it quickly." Gu Nian simply scratched him.
"..." Chu Zhaoyang rubbed the area she scratched and said, "I'm not interested in other women."
Seeing Gu Nian's disbelieving look, Chu Zhaoyang lowered his head angrily and bit the tip of her nose, saying: "After growth, there is that kind of physiological reaction, but it is just a natural reaction. Just like when you wake up in the morning, you will have that kind of physiological reaction. The reaction was the same, not because of what I saw or who I thought of."
"To be honest, I don't have any reaction at all to those people. I don't have any feelings for people no matter how beautiful they are." Chu Zhaoyang said, "I have had it before. It was just a simple physical reaction. I don't need to think about it. Who I am looking at is just a mechanical solution. I can never have a specific appearance in my mind, even if I imagine it according to my preferences."
Until he met Gu Nian.
The concept that he had never thought about before, and had always been vague, suddenly took on substance.
As if somewhere, he should be like this.
What he had been waiting for was Gu Nian.
It sounded a bit unbelievable, but thinking about it meant believing.
She couldn't imagine the picture he would create by looking at other women's photos or the faces in his mind.