[Albedo's POV]
My feelings and life were complex. I live my days in bliss, madly in love and eagerly expecting to spend all my eternity alongside the person that I hate the most in this world.
During my time away from Ray-sama. I realised some things: I couldn't help but hate him, and yet, I couldn't help but love him.
An eternal paradox where my body, my heart and my mind were constantly at war of interests.
My brain screams to me to murder master every day.
My heart screams to love and serve my master every day.
My body screams to fuck my master every day.
At least for now, it is two against one, so I can continue to remain steadfast by his side while he allows me to release my murderous instincts in our bed. While we make love, I can wantonly release my killing intent to him, and still have the most mind-numbing sex that we can enjoy.
Thankfully, I'm a succubus. The way I express murderous intentions translates to my body craving my partner's energy. More sex, more savage, more animalistic… more pleasurable. And I can assure you that I am constantly depleting my master's energy reservoir. Those women can't keep up with me, and they're starting to realise.
That is why I have no qualms about going last. Once everyone is satisfied, I can walk in and quietly suck master's leftover energy that evening (which is usually quite a lot).
We have been doing that for months. I have enjoyed with Ray-sama what Ains-sama couldn't do for me. I have fucked Ray-sama in all forms that I could imagine, and I'm still thinking of more ways to get his energy, to murder his immortal self.
'I love it, I love my life~'
But that leaves a little predicament. After his therapy, I have become a being nigh infinite. The whole scope of my powers I don't know yet. But what I know is all the energy I have accumulated from master, has settled down and will soon need to be released.
Every night, I extract energy from him equivalent to a dozen super magic spells.
Months worth of all that sun-energy are still trapped and compressed within my womb. I can only use so much to nourish my baby.
As for the other bit of energy left... it is about time I start considering how to release it before it's too late. If Azrael-san is having trouble...
'I guess it can't be helped~'
It didn't take me long to skip through space several times to reach the source of her energy. While doing so, I felt a huge spatial wave that shocked me.
It was not something anyone in this world should be able to produce. Let alone, it means in this world, there are beings capable of manipulating space. I would have to report this to Ray-sama.
When I reached, I saw her fighting a group of individuals that didn't look like weaklings at all. And on top of that, she was bleeding.
The whole place was a mess with a boiling sea and magma rocks everywhere. There was a certain region of the sea that was burning in pitch-black flames that felt dangerous even to me. One could tell the gods had fought in here.
For a moment, I frowned. The last time I saw Lady Azrael was in the infamous night where everything happened. When Nazarick was destroyed.
It has been almost a year since then, and the woman looked just as terrifying as she had been back then.
I thought to intervene, but then... my mind started. A dilemma that I didn't think I was going to face during this junction.
'Let her die'
I gasped at my own thoughts, creeping up like centipedes up my ears. My hand stretched forward, and I saw her get taken down by a titanic humanoid. I had to act now–
'If she dies, he will be sad~'
I bit my lips hard, trying to stretch forward further... but someone took my wrists, stopping me. And I knew who it was... and I didn't want to face her.
'He will be sad, devastated… and he will come to us for comfort. Two bids with one stone'.
'Shut up!'
'Have you forgotten Ains-sama already? You whore?!'
'Shut up! I- I will help–!'
Lady Azrael and the man who had taken her down both stopped moving, but this was a chance the rest of them took to begin some sort of technique that sealed her in scrolls.
My eyes shook at the implications. If I allowed this to happen...
'Imagine the chaos~ Ray-sama would destroy this world in his sadness. Thousands of lives would perish, perhaps millions. But the pain he would feel would be eternal. Right now, as he lies down confident in the embrace of his lovers, there is the woman he adores being abducted and perhaps murdered... he wouldn't ever forgive himself, can you imagine!?~'.
'S-Stop!'.
'He would feel pain like what we have felt. No, you have already forgotten... it is only me who feels this pain still... right, Albedo?'
I finaly turned around to come face to face with myself. A bloodied, dirty, profane and sad version of myself. The version of myself who still hated Ray-sama with every fibre of her being, the version of me who wished nothing but his death, but that would never see that wish come to reality.
The version of myself who also hated herself to the core because she couldn't deny the physical pleasure of that relationship.
'N-No, I–'
I still feel that pain too; I just wish to ignore it.
That version of me embraced me pitifully, like an opportunity... an opportunity to finaly come to terms with one another, to stop fighting.
'If he were to feel that much pain, I would be able to forgive him… but until I see him suffer, I will never forgive him'.
I was reluctant, I didn't want him to suffer, I thought suggesting something else... perhaps some other kind of pain... if I allow her to die now, it is master who will never forgive me!
'S-Something else–'.
She whispered in my ears with a cold, chilling tone that finaly drew an edge for me.
'Are you deaf? I won't forgive him... until I see him suffer like I have suffered'
'...'
I didn't take any action, and she turned around to watch Lady Azrael be taken away amidst conversations. Everything was going the way she wanted... she was almost too eager. Amidst her laughter, she stopped abruptly.
"Ugh!!–"
She spat blood in her own claws and watched her stomach, dripping blood and organs, a claw poking through. When she looked back at me, she realised that I wasn't about to allow this.
And that I would murder myself if necessary to prevent Ray-sama from going through such suffering.
I had already betrayed Nazarick for Ray-sama.
I had betrayed Ains-sama for Ray-sama.
And now... I was betraying myself, too.
"If you're not willing to forgive him… if you have to cause him suffering no matter what. Then I have to kill you too, that's all".
'I am you! You can't kill me without losing yourself! Your memories, who you are... are you willing to lose everything we have gone through?! Every conquest in Nazarick, all those memories–'
"It doesn't matter... Before I make Ray-sama suffer, I will choose to die".
With enough said, I tore her apart with her own two hands. The pain was there… it was unavoidable and shattering.
I felt memories scattering, those treasurable memories of my guild, my Nazarick, my sisters, my comrades, our conquest, our glory... I saw it all flush out of my head while leaving behind a painful hollow.
My eyes were numb as blood dripped out of them, but even then, I smiled with an obsessed expression of a succubus in love.
"H-Hehe…hehehe…" I looked at my bloodied hands and the scattered corpse of the woman I once was.
I saw my own reflection in that blood.
The reflection of a succubus that had sacrificed everything for a tasty cock... I guess that's just what I am... a shameless whore who fell in love too hard.
But it doesn't matter... because I know he will be responsible, he will stay with me forever, and he will accept this deranged, wretched version of me.
"Ray-sama, I LoVe yOu ❤️"
I took a step forward, my halberd materialised and with it... I mercilessly beheaded that shark boy who was carrying Azrael like she was his belonging.
When his head fell onto the water together with a rain of blood, there was silence at first... they hadn't yet registered my presence.
"GiVe HeR bAcK, peacefully, or painfully~".