I had slept four hours in two days.
I want to be precise about why, because the reason matters and because I have been lying about it to everyone including myself.
It was not that I could not sleep.
It was that I did not want to.
Fifteen years ago I was a god who had never dreamed and wanted nothing else.
Two nights ago I finally did, and something in it turned its head toward me, unhurried, interested, and looked.
For one and a half seconds.
And then stopped.
I have spent every hour since then being extremely awake, on purpose, in a way I have never once been awake in my entire existence, and if you had told me at any point in my first life that I would one day be afraid to close my eyes I would have laughed at you in whatever passes for laughter among beings made of light.
So.
Four hours.
Bear that in mind.
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Selene announced it on Friday, during core cultivation.
That was deliberate. I understood it afterward.
