I was basically cowering behind Raiven. I had my side to him with my hands pressed to my heart. My head hung so low that my chin almost touched my hands. My knees were slightly bent as I tried to curl into myself.
I never did like it when they argued but I knew this time was necessary. Aiden had to finally realize what he has been doing to me. I knew he didn't realize how much his actions had hurt me.
No matter how much I tried to hold it in, a slight whimper slipped out of my lips. I felt hands on my shoulders. I slowly glanced up at Raiven. He stared down at me with concern in his eyes. I glanced behind him at Aiden. He was staring at me with wide eyes.
A tear slid down my cheek. I stepped back as Aiden stretched out his hand like he was reaching for me. I turned on my heels and ran. I ran back to the office and closed the bookcase door. If it was similar to the other then the way to lock it was the same.
I quickly locked it and also made it so I was the only one that could unlock it. I went to the far corner and slid down to the floor. I pulled my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them. I buried my face in my knees.
I was so excited to find Raiven and then more so when Aiden joined us. I was so happy. In the beginning I knew someone was after Raiven and we took care of them. I knew Raiven would never betray me. However, I'm not so sure of Aiden.
After starting college I found someone wanting Aiden and tried to deal with them. However, Aiden didn't appreciate it. Instead he got upset with me. I thought we made up and it was behind us but he stayed friends with them. Even going so far as hanging out with them without Raiven and I.
I tried to be ok with it but every time he went to hang out with them I felt like I was dying a little more. I tried to be understanding since I knew Aiden didn't have anyone before us. It got harder and harder each time.
Raiven knew how it was affecting me. He could feel it. He tried to comfort me every time but it didn't always work. Sometimes I wouldn't calm down until Aiden came back. Somehow Aiden never knew how he made me feel. It was almost like he blocked the link.
"Killian, sweetheart. Please unlock the door." I heard Aiden call at the door.
I sunk more into myself. I didn't want to. I didn't want to see him. I then heard a sigh.
"Let's leave him alone. He doesn't want to see you right now." Raiven spoke up.
"Wait, why?" Aiden questioned Raiven.
"You would know if you opened up to him. You stopped feeling what Killian felt when it came to you. You always could feel what he felt and was thinking when it came to others but you closed yourself off to him."
"What? I did?"
"Killian barely used the link. When he did when it came to you he would look at you confused. Didn't you notice? He couldn't feel you. He couldn't feel what you were feeling or thinking. He could feel you were our mate but that was all."
"Really?"
"Every time he tried to figure out what you were thinking and feeling towards us he tried to use the link. Every time he tried to figure out why you were acting like you were he tried to use it. Only to run into a brick wall."
"Why? Why did I block it?" I heard something slide to the floor.
"You must have done it subconsciously. Like you used to with your old pack link."
"Subconsciously. Pack link. Of course."
"What are you going to do now?"
Just as Raiven asked that I felt a snap. Emotions and thoughts flooded me. It was so much I nearly passed out. My body slid to the side until I was laying on my side. I ended up in the fetal position.
"Ahh!" A scream ripped through me.
"Killian! Open the door!" Raiven yelled through the door as he pounded on it.
I whimpered. I could barely lift my head let alone move to open the door. I knew Raivan would soon figure out a way to open the door. I may have made it so I was the only one to unlock it but I did leave a way for Raiven. A way Aiden didn't know.
Soon I heard a click. I slowly peeked an eye open as Raiven rushed to my side.
"Lil bit. Baby boy. What's wrong?" Raiven knelt down by my side and lifted me into his arms.
I weakly leaned into him. "Link." I barely squeezed out. "Too much."
Raiven lifted me up and then left the office. He took me to the bedroom where he laid me down on the bed. He tucked me in. He cupped my cheek. "Do you mean Aiden opened up to you?"
"Hmm." I hummed since I wasn't strong enough to talk. I already used my strength trying to tell him what happened. Since it's been so long since I felt Aiden in the link everything flooded back so quickly and suddenly that I was overwhelmed. It hurt like hell. It took so much not to pass out.
I then heard a bang. I slowly peeled my eyes open to see what it was. I saw Aiden kneeling beside the bed with his head bowed.
"I'm so sorry sweetheart. I didn't mean to hurt you. I meant to stop hurting you with my carelessness so I forced open the link I somehow locked. I didn't know it would be too much."
I struggled to lift my hand but I soon rested it on his head. I knew he didn't mean to hurt me. When he lifted his head I smiled at him. My eyes were soft and smile gentle.
"It's ok. I know." I squeezed out. I had to keep taking breaks so I could catch my breath. "I can finally feel it." My hand slipped down to cup his cheek. "I'm so glad. I'm so glad you finally opened up to us."
Aiden stared into my eyes. Once everything I said sunk in tears started slipping down his cheeks. "Sweetheart." He whimpered. For an alpha he can show the soft side pretty easily. I wonder if it's because he's not the dominant in our relationship. That role is filled by Raiven.
I sighed. "It's ok Papi. Everything will be better from now on." I slowly turned my smile to a pout. "But please don't do that again." I glanced to the side. "I felt like we lost you just as we found you."
Aiden flinched. I glanced back at him just as his face fell. "I'm so sorry sweetheart. I won't do it again."
I made him lift his head to look at me. "Good. I can't go through that again."
Aiden nodded. "Ok."
I glanced over at Raiven. He nodded at me. He knew what I wanted to say to Aiden. "Aiden, listen. About Cameron. I don't like him. I haven't liked him since that day I met him. I wish you wouldn't be friends with him." I wouldn't look at him. I knew Cameron was his friend and I didn't want to get in the way of it but I can't change how I feel. "I don't want you around someone that has feelings for you." I whispered the last part.
Aiden tilted his head. After a while he sighed. "Ok. I'll stop hanging out with him. I won't talk to him again outside of the club."
I looked back at Raiven. When I turned back to Aiden I smiled. "Thanks Aiden. I'm sorry for asking but this will put my mind at ease."
Aiden nodded and pulled me into a hug. "I'll do anything for you Killian. You and Raiven. I'm sorry for how I've been acting. I only thought about myself. You and Raiven are my mates. I'll think about you guys from now on." He whispered into my ear. My ears are sensitive so when he whispered into them I shivered.