- Lucia's POV -
"You're a good kid right? Promise that you'll listen to Mom's advices okay~" I said as I cupped my son's adorable face
"Un" seeing him nod, all I could do was hope that he'll take my teachings to heart
When I finally waved him goodbye, I had a brief moment of freedom to fully think through the current affairs in our home. Earlier, while Lith was sleeping, Linia and Luna already woke up and found me sitting at the table.I knew that my son would be at his teacher's place until late at noon, so I told them to wait for me at the nearby pond once Lith left.
"Sigh... what a mess..." I sighed as I thought about my children
I was still pretty split on my decision, on one hand I knew that I already delayed the talk with my daughter's long enough, and I can't allow them to go the capital so naive about adult matters. Not to mention them studying at a magic academy . I don't know much about the school experience, but I do know what the people in the Magic academy is like, and they are not the most chaste and virtuous when it comes to such matters. Having them go there so naive, would be like throwing two sheep in a pack of wolves.
However, I also had some worries. Maybe I'll just add fuel to the fire, that is Linia and Luna's growing affections towards their brother. Had I not found out about it and just taught them about the birds and the bees like I originally planned, who knows what they would've done with their newfound knowledge.
But in the end, I just decided to go ahead with it. This is something that must be done to set them on a straight path, to ensure they'll make good choices in their social life and career.
"Agghhhhh, why did I just think of this now!?" I complained in anger
I could've slowly explained it over the course of years, instead of just dropping everything suddenly in a short amount of time. I was too blinded by my desire to have them remain so cute and innocent forever, I couldn't see them growing up right before my eyes.
I went to the bathroom, as I slowly washed myself. I dried myself before changing into new clothes. I tied my hair to make sure I looked atleast presentable before locking the house and heading out to see my daughters.
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"Mom..." Luna said weakly as she saw me approach Linia was right beside her she looks little scared.
Hearing Luna's voice so quiet and nervous and looking at Linia I thought that maybe I scared them too much from last night? I didn't mean to frighten them, but I just wanted them to answer honestly.
"I took quite some time... sorry for making you wait" I said
"No, it's fine Mom..." Luna meekly answered
and Linia nodded her head
Looking at tgem current appearance, I realized that I'm REALLY late on talking to them about this. They are practically a young adult by now. I remember my Mother talking to me about how my breasts will start to get bigger and how hair will probably grow on my private parts. Looking back, I was already pretty late even when she had her first period. She was so scared that time, since I never even talked about it with her.
The more I thought back, the more I realized just how much I failed to do my part and the more steadfast I became in finally doing my job as her mother.
"Would you two mind going in a walk with your Mom?" I asked them
"we would love to "
"we would love to" Luna and Linia answered together with a smile
We started walking as we followed a trail out of the forest. Hearing their silence, I couldn't help but feel awkward. I was the one who called them out here yet I'm not saying anything. I just really didn't know how to start this kind of talk with my children.
"Uhm... how's your traning going?" I asked to sort of start a conversation
"It's going great."
"it's going fine " they replied
"I see."
"..."
Dead silence again.
Please someone help me. How can I smoothly transition our topic towards that without it feeling too abrupt? Okay... Let's start with romantic relationships first. I'll try to start by telling my experiences first... What to expect in a relationship and what they should look for in someone...
"How long has it been since we last did something with just the three of us?" I asked lightly
"Just us?... the ones the I could remember are... when you were teaching us magic for the first time" Linia answered smiling as she thought back to her childhood
"Really? Was it really that far back?" Luna was pretty surprised that the last time we did something just with the two of us would be that way back .I was also surprised at that .
"We usually do stuff with a Lith ever since..." Linia answered as we walked over a fallen log that was bridging over a small stream
"I see... well this is something I should've done way more" I said in realization
A few seconds of silence occured between us, before I continued-
"Both of You grew up so fast, I feel like it was just last month when you two were learning to shoot arrows with me... two of you used to be so happy when I pampered both ." I reminisce in nostalgia
"And now you two are already planning for your future career..." I turned backwards as I walked while looking back at them .
"It wouldn't have hurt if you two grew a little bit slower you know? I know both you like to be independent as soo-" I was gonna continue but I saw their face change with my words
Did I say something wrong? I was wondering what did I say for them to make such a face when Luna quietly spoke
"we just... want to help you... and..."
"I don't hate it... when you still treat me... like you used to" she meekly said as she averted her face away from me
"I also don't hate it "Linia said after her
"Oh... Really? I thought you two hated it when I get all chummy with you two ..." I said in shock
Just how out of touch am I with my children? It felt shameful for me as a Mother that I couldn't even know what was going through my children's head. But in the end, I still felt happy when I found out that my daughters still loved their Mama's affection despite them acting all cool and collected outside.
"Come here, you~ Acting all shy~" with a grin I wrapped my arms around their shoulders as I pulled them towards me and hug them
"Wha-? Let go! you stupid-!" Linia protested as she looked around for other people, seeing no one around she then became quiet as she accepted her Mom's love Luna didn't protest at all
I should've known... they were at that age when Childrens wanted to look cool and mature in front of others. Seeing them get all shy and happy due to her Mom's affection like before, I couldn't help but smile.
"...we never ever thought of leaving you or Lith "
"So please don't say words like that, Mom" she said as she rest her body weight against me
"Okay, okay... I won't do it again~" I replied
Feeling the mood turn light, I felt that it is a good time to finally start talking with them for real.
"Linia ,Luna ... about last night" I said cautiously to make sure they wouldn't get scared this time
However I still felt their body freeze when they heard my words. They must really be scared from last night. But I must make them feel safe and comfortable talking about these stuff with me, I can't let it feel like I'm scolding or shaming them otherwise any of them would never open up to me again like that.
"..."
"It's fine... I'm not mad nor am I condemning you, I can completely understand how... you grew up practically glued together and you never met that much with people your age... so you two might think you 'like' your brother" I eased them
"..."
"I just haven't explained it to you yet... You see, there's much more to relationships than just 'liking each other" just when I said so I felt their grip on my hands tighten
"..."
"I've neglected teaching you about this, but Mom will properly teach you now okay?" I said as I gestured that we should sit down at the nearby lake
"Um"
"Un" they nodded
"Since both of you're so talented, a lot of boys will probably approach you... but just because they're nice when talking to you doesn't mean they really like you."
"Why?" Linia tilted her head at what I said
"Well you see... Some men just wants to do certain things with you, things that you should only do with someone like your husband" I explained
"... uhhh... 'Certain things'?" I saw Luna's face cramp up for a second, but I didn't mind
"Well... uhm... you know your private parts right?" I said as my face slowly turned red in shame
For some reason their face also turned red, probably due to hearing their mother start talking about intimate stuff. Okay... here goes nothing. I closed my eyes for a second to properly organize on how I should explain things in an orderly manner.
I then sat between them , even though I knew there wasn't anyone in the area, I can't just get myself to speak about these topics out loud.
"Luna ,Linia... have you two ever gotten any sort of 'weird' dreams?" I asked in a whisper
"W-weird? W-what do you mean by weird?" Luna stuttered as her face turned even redder ans Linia face was also red like tomato
I thought of what kind of dreams would be considered 'erotic' for them . I then thought of who would she be dreaming about and I bit my lips, when I came to a conclusion. Although I didn't want to say it, I needed to, so I can have an answer.
"Things like, someone, maybe your brother, kissing you or touching your body" I said
"... Wha- what are you talking about Mom?" Linia's face was red as she tried to get away from me , Luna also tried to get away
I knew just how embarassing talking about this is, so they are probably's just reacting due to shame. It's not like theyreally does not want to talk to me about it, so I just held their hands down to keep them in place.
"or did you ever have the urge to touch your vagina?" I tried to say it with a straight face, but even I felt embarrassed talking about this with my daughters
"T-touch it?" Linia asked
"Un... like did it ever feel itchy? Like you just wanted to 'rub' it?" I asked
I didn't want to sound too condemning. After all, it's just a normal part of growing up and the start of becoming more sexually aware of others.
"uhm..." Linia was averting her eyes here and there Luna was looking down at her feet as she came up with an answer
"Sometimes... yes."
" Umm it happens sometime" they answered quietly
I can't help but grin at them being so awkward and quiet as they opened up to me.
"It's fine, it's fine... your body is not being weird when that happens okay?" I explained
"It's just normal and don't think you are strange when rubbing yourself feels good" I added
"Oh..." Luna said as she looked anywhere except directly into my eyes Linia was also avoiding looking at my eye.
So they atleast experienced it themself by now.
"However boys also get that okay? And they get it even worse than us" I continued
"They also want to feel good with their penis, and they would try to get you to do things for them."
I can see their face freeze, when they heard their mother say words like 'penis' out loud. But this is the truly awkward part that's about to come next. For her to know why boys would want to get closer to her, I must tell her about what they are after in the first place.
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"What? It goes inside?"
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"Wait... that's where babies come from?"
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"Who would do such vulgar things... Of course I would wait till marriage!"
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"and uhhh... that's the reason why boys would try to impress you." I said finally relieved that I was able to get through the topic
"I see..." Luna said with her face red Linia's face was red in shame as well
""I know, I'm not the best person to tell you this but you should find someone who will take responsibility for you, okay?" I reminded her
"Of course, there are people you should never go after. For example people who are already happily married... people who already has a family... and a wife." I told her
"...Un, we know that Mom." theyhugged me as they said so
"But why would people try to for people who are already married? Or why would others cheat when they already have someone?" Linia asked me with a troubled face Luna also looked at also want to know answer of that question
"That's... it depends from person to person... some do it because they are unhappy with their partners, some do it because it makes them feel better about themselves... there is a lot more reasons, some are even worse but don't mind them okay?" Even I don't know much what goes on to those types of people's heads
"There are also people who just wants to sleep with as much men or women they possibly can, those ones just see other people as a trophy to be collected. Make sure to avoid those as well, okay?" I added
"I see..."
" Uml
"Don't worry Mom. we won't disappoint you" they reassured me
"I know... both of you're a good girl~" I can't help but smile again on how lovable they are right now
"Well, I hope you know what boys are after now~" I said as I rubbed their head"
They were still embarrassed about their mother suddenly start talking about this kind of stuff with them as both still buried their face on my shoulders. However there was also another reason why I explained this to them.
"Luna ,Linia , now that you are more aware of the matters between guys and girls. You can't just freely sleep with your brother anymore" I said
"In our residence at the city, there are three rooms in there, one for each of us. Lith would also learn about these things and become more aware of other women. So you need to set up proper boundaries with him " I explained
"I understand..." Luna answered
"um"
There was a few seconds of silence until Linia decided to speak out,
"Mom, I'll make sure that you'll be proud of me don't worry" Linia said to me
I felt like there were some strong conviction behind her words.
"I'm already proud of you, though?" I smiled as I rubbed her back
"No, even more than that Mom" she said as she held my hands strongly
"Then I'll be looking forward to it."
Finally a sigh of relief came up on me, as I finished talking with my daughters. It was like I have been liberated from one of my duties. However if I thought that this was hard, then I should prepare even more for the mess that is my current relationship with my son just thinking about it i have headache
I can talk to my two daughter pretty honestly, since our relationship is pretty straightforward and honest. However I did some things with my son, that can potentially ruin it. Considering how I straight up forbid Luna and Linia's affections, what would happen if they were to find out what I did.
However I also intend to straight out my relationship with him, but doing so wouldn't be easy. I'm not really the best at lying, and I would surely slip if I don't take notes of what I said. He's already starting to grow, and now would be the best time to talk to him about it.
It's all my fault really, even though I always said that it would be the last time, but I kept just doing it again. Masturbating by yourself and having someone else do it for you is just too different. I can reason all I want, but when you're extremely horny and you know there is someone just beside you who will willingly, no even happily, help you out, asking you if this feels good without any complaints. Someone who doesn't nag you for your terrible 'skills', it just become too tempting even for me even though that person is my own son .
I always regret it heavily every morning afterwards, but I sure don't do so whenever I'm in the middle of doing it.
"Should we go back?" I asked them
"I think I can stay like this for a while" Luna replied and Linia nodded with her
"What would you two like for lunch?" I asked
"Maybe steak?"
"Steak huh? Sure I don't mind"
We walked on the shallow parts of the lake as we soaked our feet in fresh water. I then thought about if we had any ingredients left, while Linia asked me about other matters. We relaxed for some time as we waited for noon to arrive.