Who doesn't have a past?
Some people think the past is actually a most painful memory, of course, a memory that should never be mentioned in a lifetime, but who knows that it's just a scar deep in someone else's heart. Who would be willing to repeatedly reveal their own scars in front of outsiders, to show that bloodiness to others, only to be mocked by them?
When I think back on everything I have experienced, I really don't know what mindset and approach I used to reach where I am today. How much I fear that my life will progress step by step to my most difficult moments, collapse. I am so afraid, this is not what I want, but the moment I realize that all of this is too far from my ideals, I know this is truly not what I want. All I want is a stable life, yet not everyone can give me that, every step I took to reach today was really relying on my luck.
