We always end up doing things we don't want to do, but no one ever thinks about the pain in their hearts.
"Dad, I never thought of living this way, nor did I think of hurting you like this. Doing such things is the deepest pain in my heart. I just wanted to give you the best of myself again and again, but I couldn't do it myself. I don't understand when I turned into who I am today, I pushed myself step by step into a corner, and in the end, I realized that everything I did was wrong.
You're right, no one did anything wrong to me, and no one betrayed me. The one who betrayed is not you, but me. I gave you the heaviest hurt again and again. I forgot that it was you who gave me the warmest family, who taught me what family love is, what love is. Step by step, I reached where I am now, and I can't distinguish which one is the real me. I've lost my true self, and my once-held beliefs have changed, I've become numb and indifferent!
