The world should reflect your honest nature, but the youthful recklessness and the later wounds are all waiting for his forgiveness. It turns out you are my desire for redemption.
"Dad, I never thought about living this way, nor did I intend to hurt you like this. Doing such things is the greatest pain deep in my heart. I just want to give you the best of myself time and again, but I can't. I don't understand when I became like this. Step by step, I forced myself to the brink, only to find out that everything I did was wrong.
You're very right, no one has wronged me, and no one has betrayed me. The one who betrayed was not you, but me. Time and again, I caused you the gravest harm. I forgot that it was you who gave me the warmest family and taught me what family and love mean. I have walked step by step to this point, and now I can't distinguish who the real me is. I have lost my original intention; I've become numb and indifferent.
