12-3-2025 8:16pm
So I just took a 50 milgram antianxiety/antidepressants meds, I'm gonna use this to talk about how I feel and if I noticed any effects so yeah day 1 is here.
10:49 pm
Not sure if it is working, it has been a couple hours and I still feel pretty anxious about stuff but it is just 50 milgrams and I just started taking them.
12-4-2025. 11:43 am
So it is day 2, I also take sleep pills now forgot to talk about that. So far today I am find I guess, not sure if the pills I took are good or if I'm still tired or such but so far I'm good, having really been in a situation that stresses me out yet to test though but hey we will see.
2:19 pm
My mom and her boyfriend are arguing again though I'm not as stressed about it as usual. They always argue even over stupid stuff like who bought milk, what is there to eat, where the remote is. Everything somehow ends up into an argument and been that way for years, their relationship is toxic and unhealthy thanks to both sides and I don't understand why they don't just break up with each other. Honestly I have been expecting one of them to kill the other.
3:08 pm
So far I been fine but then I started watching a story called 'my brother's wife stole my baby at the hospital while I was unconscious', and now I'm shaking a good bit though it isn't as bad as I thought. My head is mostly clear which is weird since I have been young I constantly had to have thoughts going through my head or else I would start becoming annoyed, angry, and wanting to punch something. So maybe it is working but I'm not sure, usually I need strong medicine to deal with stuff since my immune system is strong so I'm not sure.
11:18 pm
So I finished work awhile ago. I guess my meds are working. My head self weird like it was clear but also not? My thoughts and mind felt like they were trying to scratch at some type of wall so I'm not sure. I suppose 50 milgrams Is good but I honestly think I need stronger ones but who knows.
12-5-2025. 12:14 pm
So it is the third day. I guess I am find, I feel like how I felt yesterday and I'm starting to figure out which is me and which is my depression and anxiety. I also am thinking about going to the gym today but am unsure. I will write what I decided later.
10:01 pm
So it is the end of the day, everything is good I suppose, I think the meds are working but not completely. It feels like my anxiety and depression is stuck behind glass scratching trying to get back to the forefront. And as for the sleep pills I think they work the first day but aren't working anymore, I'm not sure but I know I have taken so many pills during my life that I might have gain some resistance to the weaker stuff but who knows.
12-6-2025. 11:11am
So it is another day, I am kinda running out of things to say, I guess I'm starting to wake up at 11 am recently though I don't know if it is the meds or not but probably.