"So, you're writing a song called 'Your Song'?" I asked Ethan as he and his band were writing songs at the studio they had rented as a way to relax after a long day of performing from the night before.
"Yeah! It's for Meredith." Ethan replied as he giggled and blushed at the thought of writing a song for his girlfriend. "I've been thinking of making it like a Taylor Swift song." He suggested as I looked at him with a smile, amused at what he suggested, even if it was his own idea. I nodded as Ethan acknowledged it, writing some lyrics down in his binder as he smiled at the lyric he was writing down as if it was the most poetic thing he have ever written in his life as a singer-songwriter of some band at University.
I giggled as I read what Ethan had written in his binder notebook.
"What?" He asked as he laughed at me because I giggled, I assumed he had always found my giggling adorable and cute, I looked at him again with a serious face, but I could only hold it for a few seconds because of the both of us couldn't look at one another seriously without laughing at each other's face.
"I mean. . . these lyrics? Really?" I teased Ethan as I smirked at the lyric written in the notebook:
This song is written for your pretty face
Who had felt the rays of the daylight on those cheeks
Those sweet, rosy cheeks.
"I'm sorry, Eth, but I don't think I find that romantic, even for my taste." I laughed uncontrollably as I hit him too many times on his arm, "That is totally not how Mother Taylor will write a love song!"
"Nah! It's a good lyric!" He countered as I gave him a loud giggle, the other band members were laughing at our exchange, but they were used to it as far as I know. The members became our friends as well in the last year of our senior high school. I laughed once more as Ethan was trying to explain why he wrote that lyric.
"Look, Ethie, I know rosy cheeks is a nod to Taylor's Wildest Dreams but isn't it too obvious?
"I know, but back me up here, Lila." He frowned jokingly as he looked at me with those serious eyes of his, I giggled as he knew that using the puppy dog eyes trick on me won't work, but he keeps trying.
Then we heard the studio door open, it was Ethan's girlfriend. I looked away and let out an annoyed sigh. Her high squeaky voice echoed through the recording room.
"Hi, Delilah!" She squeaked as she hugged me unexpectedly, my eyes widened in surprise, but I hugged back reluctantly, rolling my eyes behind her back.
"Hi, Mer." I said, not revealing a tinge of annoyance. The band members except Ethan know that I am always cold towards Meredith, but I hide it well so that Ethan wouldn't notice it. I respect all of his relationships and I am genuinely happy for him to have found someone who would love him forever.
"Anyway…" George said with a slight chuckle to lighten up the mood, my face turned red and my eyes sparkled when I looked at the tall man. I was in the process of moving on from Ethan because I know there will never be an us, and here I was, starting to fall in love with my best friend's other best friend.
I have dealt with heartbreak so many times. Most of it being unrequited, and some of it were because of lying cheaters. I have this curse of falling in love with those close to me, and it had happened to me with Ethan in high school, but I am now learning to move on past that. I have learnt my lessons.
In fact, I never learn. My mind is a weird place and my heart chooses the worse people I should fall in love with. Maybe I'm so scared of meeting new people and setting myself up with them and I end up falling in love with people I should only call just friends.
Falling in love with someone you can't have is a curse itself if I think about it. It's a curse within a curse of falling in love with someone close like your best friend, but maybe that's just how it's supposed to be for me, fall in love and hurt myself, again and again.
I found myself starting at George and I blushed instantly, George noticed me and he chuckled, "You look starstruck, Dels." He said as he gave me a pat on my head,
I found myself starting at George and I blushed instantly, George noticed me and he chuckled, "You look starstruck, Dels." He said as he gave me a pat on my head, "You look adorable when you blush." I blushed much harder now as I tried to hide my face with my hands.
"Shut up." I stuttered as I looked away, Felix was looking at me behind his drum kit with a teasing smirk, I gave him a look and he immediately looked away, letting out a suppressed laugh. Michael on the other hand, played the intro to Robbers, which made Ethan laugh, and Meredith too.
"C'mon, Delilah! It's not that big of a deal." Ethan said.
"Ethie's right, Dels." Meredith added, but I chose to ignore it, although, she was right, it's not big of a deal with George, I'm fine with falling in love with that damned bassist, but I don't want him to feel like I'm using him for character development, if I have to fall in love with someone entirely different from Ethan, I have to move on so that I can give him one-hundred percent of my all, not just a rebound that will end up flaming up and exploding in the process,
If I have to love, then it has to be real, not fake just because I can't move on from someone who had been in my mind and head for so long. It's unfair, to be honest. It's very, very unfair for someone to be in love with you and be in a relationship with them if your heart still calls for the one you used to love.
I have learnt a lot, and love is supposed to be something that two parties are equal to. Love is keeping the balance in a relationship. Love is always patient as mentioned in the Bible. Love is not all about grand gestures and things. Love is supportive of the one you want to spend your numbered days with, and that's the kind of love I want.
"Lilah?" Ethan snapped his fingers in front of me as I snapped out of my inner monologue, I blinked two times as I looked at him, then back at George, who was smiling at me as he looked away to look at the frets of his bass, practicing a bassline.
"Hm?" I let out as I looked at Ethan, who seemed to be asking me something when I was zoned out, "What was it, Ethan?"
"I was asking if you want to sing on stage for our next performance, for the graduation ceremony for the seniors." He answered as he looked at Meredith, then back at me.
I nodded as I giggled, giving him a big smile as this would be my stepping stone, even though I performed for his band a lot of times, just... not that often anymore since Meredith is in the picture, "What song?"
"You know the 1975, right? We're performing About You as a part of our setlist. You have a lot of time to practice as you'll be playing rhythm too."
"Hmm, I'm fine with that. Gimme my guitar." I said as my eyes looked at my guitar that was next to Ethan, he knew and he passed the guitar to me. I grabbed my guitar and plugged into an extra amplifier and started playing the opening for About You.