I look at him hoping to see the man I fell in love with just last year. That man has been gone for months now, though.
We went to my mother's house for Christmas and I didn't think it would be a problem. We walk in and everyone turns to look at us with shock on their faces. I had bruises a few weeks back and my mother saw them. Of course, I made up an excuse not thinking she would care enough to question it. My mom saw straight through me though. She looks at me and then to Ozzy with a warning look. She must have told people about her suspicions, as they looked at us how my mother did.
From the start, everyone thought he was trouble. Which he is but they don't know him like I do. I love him. Without Ozzy, there is nothing here for me, or so I think…he tells me all the time I don't know if it's how I feel or how he feels.
We continue walking through the main hallway into the kitchen and hear whispers from my aunties. they look, laugh, and judge. That's it. That's all they ever did, I just gave them a reason to do so. Ozzy looks at me with a stern look in his eyes that no one else notices. I know what that means so I tell him "Let me show you my old room". We walked into my old room and he immediately started whisper-yelling at me about how the reason they don't like him is my fault. He told me I should've covered the bruises better. He must've suspected the same as me.
Ozzy hates it when I cry but I never thought he would get like this so I started crying and he wrapped his hand around my neck. Tightening his grip more and more he says "Don't be such a baby it's your fault. It always is. You love to make me upset. Wait till we get home." He lets go of me and walks out of the room smiling as an attempt to act like nothing happened.
On this day though, January 6, 2002, Ozzy gets upset because I didn't tell him about some random man that messaged me. But when he got upset he threw things, punched things, and hit ME. I didn't know what to do. Now that my ma knows, she always tells me "Leave him you can find better. Move back home until you are back on your feet without that boy. " But I love him how would I go?
Where is the Ozias I fell in love with?