The bedroom was filled with books and notebooks. I am preparing for the college entrance exam next month. I've been studying for almost two months now. I'm not disturbed by someone beside me, leaning closer to me.
"I think we should do this any time." He kissed me on my right cheek. "Let's have some coffee and a snack."
"I think this is your sweet side. All the time." I smiled while looking at his back. He was preparing two cups of coffee. I smelled the aroma around the corner of the living room.
"Do you think I can be a good husband now?" He was grinning while looking at my eyes.
"Stop saying that. I've been preparing for your notes."
"Are you distracted?" He chuckled while giving me a cup of coffee.
"No. Keep looking at me, and I'll punish you." I made a grumpy face while I was busy writing notes.
"A punishment I must accept."
"You know how to provoke me, huh?"
"Maybe, sip coffee, and take a bite." He put the cookie in my mouth. "You're a cute kitten now." He chuckled again. He patted my head like one. My heart keeps on beating.
"I think I need a break." I hugged him and gave him a cookie. "You're a cute kitten now." I teased him.
His phone rang thrice. I gave him the signal to take it.
My mind keeps telling me he would be busy like he was a few weeks ago. He signed a contract with his agency two months ago, and it is being taken seriously now. I worried about the entrance exam. I would like to be with him.
"Love, I am going tonight to the agency. Wish me luck!"
"Okay, love. Keep safe. Let me help you pack things."
He packed his belongings for three days. I wanted to be part of his journey while studying and making notes for him. I would like us to pass the entrance exam. I would never ask for luck for him. I would rather pray for his good health and success.
"Take good care of my notes. I'll be reading all of these while on my way there." He kissed my forehead, and he left. He waved goodbye at me. I smiled and waved back at him.
How I wish I were with him, but who knows? I am an ordinary girl living simply. No matter how the seasons changed, I am still me. I wanted to have my dreams come true without asking for help from others. I'm used to it. I'm used to this feeling. I keep myself silent about this.
All I have to do now is be brave, no matter how the sky turns dark. I will stay here because it's he who makes me feel complete.
I have to try something new and make efforts to support him and see him shine afar with his dreams. We have different shine, and all we have to take is the risk. Even though it breaks my heart to be away from him, I will love him more.
"I can't write anymore. I need to sleep now."
The alarm clock seemed mute while my body aches today. It's been a night since he left, and he wasn't giving me a call. "Is he alright?"
I can't move my body. I feel stuck here on my bed. I want to sleep more. It's Saturday now, and I still have to do something.
11:00 am. I went to the city to buy grocery items. I need to be fast, so I can eat my late breakfast and lunch.
I was walking inside the supermarket when my phone rang. "Hello, love!"
"Hello, love! I am getting tired already. I want to recharge by listening to your voice." He cleared his throat. "I apologize to you because I didn't make a call last night. The manager took my phone. I was sad not having a conversation with you the whole night until I fell asleep."
I smirked. "Really?" I sighed while looking at the shelf full of sugar. "You're so sweet. It's 11:30 am. Apology accepted. You need to rest and have lunch."
"Of course. Have your lunch there after buying things. I'll make time for you to be with me. Wait for me."
"Wh-what?" The call was dropped. He would go here? As if he was allowed to go by his agency.
"Love!"
The moment I looked back, he hugged me. "I miss you, love!"
"I-I-I mi-miss you too, love!" I hugged him back.
"Wait, are you crying?"
I sobbed. He looked at me, wiping my tears. "You miss me?" He chuckled. "Don't cry, love. I'm here for you."
Why, Nick? Why are you making me feel like this? Your heart is so pure. Your love is genuine. My heart keeps on melting when you're around me.
"You deserve this lunch. Thank you for waiting for me."
"It's too expensive here. Look at my outfit today." I am shy looking around.
"Nobody's looking at you. It's only me."
He knows about my anxiety around people, and I realized he's right. People around us are not looking at me. "Thank you, love."
I thought there was nobody like him. My fears and anxieties inside me are getting away.
"Here we go. Let's eat!" He sliced the steak on a plate and gave it to me.
"Thank you."
"You're welcome."
He is kind to me. He's a total walking green flag. I thought he was a mean guy who wanted me to be teased. It turned out that my heart would like someone like him. His words, his touch, his time, and his efforts. All of these, I think, I can't be matched.
Do I deserve all of these? I think no. I'm not taking advantage of what he gives.
Wait, I think I should cherish all of these. His heart... I want to love his heart. All I have now is him. All I can give him is my heart.
He was walking with me, and let me go home. He waved goodbye at me, and I did too.
"I'll call you later before you sleep." He texted me.
"Okay, love. I will wait for your call." I texted him back.
"Sure, love. My mind keeps thinking about you. Only you."
"Noted, love. I will keep you in my mind."
"Keep you in my heart. Always and forever."
"Keep yours too. Always and forever."
He sent a heart emoji, and I smiled. Hoping he smiled too, before he went to his agency.
I placed all of the groceries in their right places. I prepared my dinner.
After doing all things before I go to bed, he called me. We did a short review together before we sleep.
We have a goal together. I don't want it to be wasted.