Yes, it's nothing much. He can still be better in the future.
But he's tired. He doesn't want this anymore.
Compared to the outstanding brothers, sisters, and even cousin sisters of the Ye Family, he is a loser.
He can't commit suicide. Suicide is unfilial. Moreover, although he is extremely tired, he hasn't lived enough yet.
He doesn't want to become a monk, even though he has thought about it countless times. But he is unwilling!
He doesn't want to oppose his brothers and sisters, but he also doesn't want to admit that the legitimate offspring of the Ye Family are no better than the concubines' children.
At the very least, he also wants to prove that he is not useless, not just someone who causes trouble.
After leaving the Ministry of Justice, he ignored Song Nanbao calling after him and suddenly ran outside.
He didn't know how long it had been, but the cold autumn wind blew against his face, and he knelt outside The Old Summer Palace in the dead of night.
