Indeed, what these people have been saying all along is right, they all think I've been wrong and disrespectful to them, but is that really the case?
Xinxin doesn't think she's ever disrespected others, Xinxin doesn't think she's ever treated these people as anything but her own.
Xinxin feels that respect doesn't have her set rules, who can say they will always respect others, and who can say everyone deserves their respect? Do they really deserve it?
Perhaps the words 'deserve' and 'undeserve' shouldn't be used on them, but Xinxin just feels very unwilling. She doesn't think she should give so much, she doesn't think she's undeserving of anything.
Xinxin feels she's already done too many wrong things, too many foolish things. She really shouldn't be here continuing to say these things, doing these annoying things!
"You may not be able to make decisions, no one knows what they really want to do, because no one knows how difficult all this is!"
