In addition to his studies, he took on several part-time jobs outside, but earned too little, still significantly delaying his progress in studies, and damaging his health, ultimately gaining nothing from it.
Su Xiaomei felt sorry for him, worried that his pride wouldn't allow him to accept help, thus awkwardly using this obviously poor excuse to bring those things to him.
Zhang Yang comforted himself, accepting help now, promising to repay Su Xiaomei manifold in the future.
Only then could he face himself without guilt.
Indeed, good habits are hard to maintain, but laziness can quickly form.
Surely, those who are used to living good days find even their minds rusting.
If time could reverse, Zhang Yang wished he could travel back and give the stupid past version of himself a few hard slaps.
What exactly was he thinking at the time, that he chose not to live well, but instead wanted to learn about lovers' suicide?
