Hey, welcome back, Kid, you all as well, folks!
I thought I posted this last week, lbvs.
Have mercy, it's been a very busy month for me thus far!
I hope that this finds you well, yeah?
Nothing so wild to report here, life has been...a rollercoaster, but I am as tough as they come.
And as patient as they come...lmao.
Mayhap stupidly so at times, you know?
One day, someone will publish one of my books, and I will be able to commit to full-time writing.
That's the dream!
Still, here at 36 years old lol.
I see why we are referred to as "starving artists", lol
One day, someone will buy me a coffee, and I'll cry lol.
Till then? I will just keep writing what I'm writing while I can write it.
And maybe, some day you...will actually be born.
See you soon.
Enjoy.
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November 08th, 2018.
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Dear You.
The urge to write comes and goes.
It's weird.
It's not you.
It's me.
For real.
I got a flu shot today!
*Sad face drawn here.
It is sore as hell...
Long needle.
I hate needles.
They took my grandma away.
Tisk...tisk...
No needles.
Ugh.
-Dad
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-I struggled more and more to write, partly due to the fact that...well, one of my exes had a habit of picking my poetry and the likes apart, and questioning what this or that meant, you know?
That...took a toll on me, and I quickly learned to just not write, for my own sanity.
Ironically, writing was the one thing that I NEEDED in order to maintain what sanity I could while in that relationship.
Manipulation comes in many forms, Kid.
Folks.
Be wary.
-I lost my grandma when I was but 16.
She was all of 54 years old, you know?
Quite young.
Crack was her vice.
It was a big thing back in the 70s, I hear.
I was born in 1988, so I wouldn't know firsthand lol.
She lost her life to the rehab that should have saved her...
A strange and ironic tale, yeah?
Avoid drugs if you can, Kid.
Life is tough, yes.
But it is also short.
Don't throw it away.
It is also a blessing just to get to experience life.
Find something that makes you happy, and go with it, as long as it doesn't harm you or anyone else.
I will leave you at that, and I hope you come back and see the next entry.
I always appreciate your time, energy, and love.
Safe travels, folks, and as always:
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Redd.