Hey, Kid.
Hey, Folks.
How have you been?
Me?
Hmm...
I don't know, honestly.
I just learned something that could be...
Bah, never mind.
I am trying not to think negatively, you know?
Just...
Please, Kid...
Be honest.
Be honest with everyone around you.
Not telling someone something that you should is just as bad...
It is just as bad as having lied in the first place because you had the knowledge and the ability to tell you.
Bah...
I will leave you with that and see you back here soon enough.
Enjoy.
(Slowly taps at whatever buttons do whatever...)
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May 26th, 2020.
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Dear You.
It's been a long month...
Very long
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(Returns much sooner than I had thought I would...)
Hmm.
That was a quick one, lol.
Well.
What is there to say?
I have no idea what I was going through, but I do know that COVID-19 was ravaging the world.
I am sure that I still worked for that boy's group home at the time, but I was soon to return to Private Security with the same company that I had been fired from.
The difference in management, a new position, and a raise all drew me back into that fold.
I hated it, but I needed the pay.
I was outside nearly 80% of my shifts, and I am in Milwaukee, Wisconsin.
You do the weather math, lol.
Bah, the choices we make, right?
I also chose to stay with someone who wanted nothing to do with me for nearly a decade, you know?
We have to learn from what we experience, and I simply ignored all of the flags that were thrown my way.
Such is life, yeah?
I know now what I need to know, and what I am willing to suffer and not.
I know what I want.
What I need.
I know who I am, and I know the type of person I want to share my life and love with...
I just hope that this time around, it is mutual...
I don't have much love left in me, Kid.
If you are meant to be...if your mom is out there...
Let this be it.
Or this little series will serve as nothing more than a quick and comforting read for a couple of dozen good folk out there.
At least I would have done SOMETHING.
At least I would have given something to this world.
A part of me.
Even if that something isn't...YOU.
What will be, will be.
I won't give up on you, you know?
Never.
I'm just tired, Kid.
So tired.
Come to me already!
Give me a reason to hang around on this stupid rock that we call Earth just a bit longer, because I am not sure that "love" is going to do it for me...
I don't know if I will ever be loved as I love.
We will see, I suppose...
Hmm.
See you in the next one, Kid.
You as well, Folks.
Keep your head up, and I will try to do that as well.
I will.
Safe travels out there, Kid.
You as well, Folks.
And as always:
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Bluu.