Edward
I felt like a fucking idiot. I could barely sleep from how much I was twisting and turning in my bed. Why had I allowed my dumb heart to take over instead of my head? I could have just let Connor fuck me and we could have avoided that entire awkward scene.
He looked horrified when I asked him to move in with me. It was the reaction I thought I would get but at the same time I was hoping for more. However I knew what I was signing up for when I started dating Connor.
He wasn't coming out of the closet any time soon. Not that I was asking him but to know he was with me. At least permanently at home would make us feel like we weren't some dirty little secret meant to be hidden away somewhere no one would see.
I felt my stomach twist with the thought of what I had said. What if I had scared him away? Connor panicked extremely easily and he broke up with me simply because I started digging too deeply. Wanting too much from him when I knew he couldn't give me more.
