Hey! I'm Sophy. I said looking at this new girl in my French class. She was my new seat mate. This was the very first time we talked. I'm Bella she smiled sweetly at me. We spent the rest of the evening chatting. There was something different about her. Her energy everything about her. People weren't nice around this place and finding such a warm soul was so rare. At first she was so weird and I loved it. Her hair was shorter than usual and her clothes were so funny. We walked together most of the time. Did I just meet someone I actually liked. I personally detested some people's personality. How they focused solely on themselves and not other people. How they spoke hurtful words to others and laughed out loud as if it did not matter. I never disliked the place only the people. "You'll find your people" this words were a form of consolation to me. To make myself feel less pathetic. I was never the kind of girl who loved groups or would be easily influenced by peer pressure. I just wanted to fit in to be like the people I detested. Maybe life would be much easier and I would be adored, accepted or better embraced. I did care what other people thought of me. Did they think I was kind enough? Pretty? Finally I met a girl who did not care she was different. She loved to see other people thrive even if she didn't. A smile on someone's face would make her day. I found that so beautiful. The few days we spent together were the best days of my life I was truly happy. This did not change the fact that I wanted to still fit in. Despite of her difference she was easily accepted by the crowd. She was funny and thoughtful why would anyone not like her. It was never easy for me. People loved people who talked a lot and had a comic side. I was this soft spoken girl with few words. I loved to observe but I imagined what it would feel like to be part of the crowd. I had to change. Bella and I weren't talking that much like before she was part of them. Without being affected by that she was still sweet to me.
"Goodnight Sophy." a sweet voice whispered. Bella was at the door she came to tell me goodnight. This was so thoughtful of her. I smiled gracefully at her as she walked away. The next morning we sat together to have breakfast. I was taking hot cocoa and she offered to taste. "Be careful it's very hot," I told her. She was oblivious to my warning and gulped it down. This was so funny you should have seen her face. I laughed and she looked at me in spite of her pain. She giggled. Sophy that's unbelievable.'' I warned you,'' I said trying to shift the blame. This was really what I needed a form of love from a friend which embraced me not because I had anything to offer but by being myself it embraced me. We spent most of our time laughing and talking about our dreams. We would borrow books with the world map and talk of the many countries we would visit together. "Imagine both of us being on the same plane travelling together.'' Bella said so elated.
Every moment she spoke of her dreams her eyes would light up and this really encouraged me. It made me look at the world differently from a different point of view. I started dreaming of a better world. Better people. My people and I could confidently say this girl was my person. Her dreams were my dreams and I promised myself that I would make them come true. The final class of high school was so hectic and depressing. Crashing out was so normal at this point. This crash out was worse than the normal ones. I was so sick and we had exams upcoming I didn't know what to do. I went and sat on Bella's bed I couldn't hold my tears back. I couldn't believe that I was crying but it was happening. I was tired everything was going so wrong in my life and for once I wanted things to happen my way. Bella walked in and her mood suddenly changed. She sat beside me and embraced me. This was what I needed not advice or words of consolation just an embrace someone to show me that I matter. What I'm going through mattered. For that moment I felt safe and seen. Something I didn't experience. She offered to take me to the school nurse and stay there with me while I was being checked.
''If you need anything I'm here,'' she said with her soft soothing voice. I smiled at her. My bad days became less heavy and I felt less alone. Her friendship was what I had amidst the life turmoil and pain. One afternoon I was called outside by one of the girls. Bella is sick. We later didn't attend classes and I sat next to her outside. ''Just rest,'' I told her. This later on turned to be a deep talk session we talked about everything that had hurt us. We spoke truthfully from our hearts and at the end we both felt relieved. We both needed this. I later on went to get her some drugs and warm water. Bella was my bestfriend and she would forever be the girl I talk to about anything and everything. My platonic soulmate. Sometimes friendships are home a place of comfort, happiness, laughter. I believe friendships should be no less. Cause why spend the rest of your life with people who don't make you feel like you belong. I will always love Bella so much for making my life more fun and worth living and I hope that she feels the same way about me. Everyone should have a Bella in their life just not MY BELLA.