Sometimes, we've got to stop trying to be different and just try and fit into a box.
Which is not easy as one might think. Even opening a small business requires a lot of documents. For someone who's trying to stay alive and survive this harsh world. All these rules are nothing but obstacles. Why can't we be lenient for once? Just do our best and everything will get better. Well, no. It is more complicated that that.
This is what came to mind when I wanted to open my small business a few months ago. I was eager to start selling and filming content for my Instagram page, but nothing felt right. There was always that small missing document that disrupted the process and held me back.
I am Lucas. If you are wondering. I can't even be a good narrator in my own diary. But let's be honest. Who will read these shitty texts about me, my life and crappy sense of humor.
-Lucas? Are you still drawing in that tiny book of yours? What about the customers?
Everyone, this is Maria. The manager of the coffee shop.
-How was class today? What did you study? Did you have fun with your classmates?
She acts like my mom all the time. I find that very sweet and sad at the same time.
Do I look that pitiful for her to act that way? I never understood why some people have empathy for others. And sometimes, it is clear. The fakeness is piercing the eyes.
I find it ridiculous if someone came up to me and offered to be like a big brother for me, even though I am an only child. It is a big responsibility. What if you can't be present when I need a big brother's guidance? Why do I hope for something that is not real? An illusion. Who is going to be there for me? Unconditionally.
-Hey, Lucas! You're here to work, so work! I can't guarantee you will stay here if you don't act right!
See? Why bother acting nice if you're going to change immediately after saying your small words and satisfying your ego?
How does it feel to say things for others just to satisfy yourself? Is it not selfishness? Don't you pity yourself? Acting all fake must be tiring, isn't it?