Gulp, gulp, gulp.
"My, my. Drinking with such vigor! Is it really that delicious?"
It's the absolute best! What is this?! Is breast milk supposed to taste this incredible?! Thoughts about this being a beautiful woman's chest or the utter humiliation of an adult soul drinking breast milk vanished in a split second!! What was that saying again? Hunger is the best spice? The warm milk hits an empty stomach like nothing else!! Please, give me more!
Gulp, gulp, gulp... burp
"All right, all done! Time for a burp now. Gently, pat-pat..."
Urp!
"Good job~! What a good baby~"
Don't praise me so much, it's embarrassing.
Analysis of the Guardian
Now then. Now that I've calmed down, let's look at the situation objectively.
Who on earth is this woman? She wasn't here just moments ago, and then suddenly appeared. What's more, she isn't terrified by my monstrous aura in the slightest—an aura so sinister that even ordinary people who can barely perceive it would tremble in horror.
...Deducing from that, this woman must be a Nen Beast I created. Most likely, my desperate will to survive subconsciously materialized this Nen Beast. As for why it took the form of a woman, perhaps deep down I was yearning for a mother figure?
Yet, even when I try to consciously command her, she moves on her own. Even when I try to dispel her, she won't vanish. ...An automated Nen Beast? Perhaps she doesn't disappear due to a Nen condition or restriction. ...To think the very first Nen ability I crafted in this new life was a Mother Nen Beast. ...RIP my Nen memory capacity.
Well, what's done is done regarding memory allocation. I just have to accept it.
More importantly, it looks like I'm actually going to survive! If I had died back there, I might have unleashed a catastrophic posthumous curse of Nen across the entire region... In any case, I pulled through. While I have plenty of regrets about the past, for now, let's focus on the future.
My original ambition—losing my virginity to a canon manga character—no longer exists. Just as I realized while under the Geass, this isn't a fictional manga world. This world is another living reality.
HOWEVER! I have zero intention of remaining a virgin for the rest of my days!! I'm simply no longer obsessing over canon characters, that's all!! I reject my virginity, Neterooo!!
With this titanic aura! And the martial arts I mastered in my past life! Armed with these two weapons, becoming wildly popular shouldn't just be a pipe dream!!! Bwahahaha! A Harem King, I shall become!!!!!
The Third Miscalculation
...Or so I foolishly thought at the time.
"Come now, Aisha-chan. It's time for milk. Let's drink plenty today too~"
"Ah~ ooh~"
...Aisha. That's my current name. Mother gave it to me. Sounds like a girl's name, doesn't it?
What's wrong with Aisha being a boy's name, huh?! If only I could lash out and yell that in defiance...!
"You're so adorable today too, Aisha-chan~ You're definitely going to grow up to be a stunning beauty just like me~ How wonderful! You'll have boys falling head over heels for you~"
Yeah, I am completely, utterly unenthusiastic. What on earth would possess me to want to be popular with men?
This was my third major miscalculation following reincarnation... My gender is female.
How... did it... come to this...?!
Thinking about it calmly, it was obvious. Reincarnation doesn't come with a guarantee that you'll be born the same sex as your previous life. If I wanted that, I should have programmed that condition into my Nen ability beforehand.
In fact, I should consider myself lucky that I reincarnated as a human at all. The ability was designed to rebirth me as a new life form. If things had gone sideways, I could have ended up as an animal or an insect...
T-Terrifying... What a low-probability gamble I was playing... Compared to the horror of being reborn as livestock, turning into a girl is nothing!
...Sorry, no. It's definitely not "nothing"! If I stay a woman, losing my virginity as a guy is fundamentally impossible from the start. I don't just not have the chance to lose it—I don't even have it in the first place! On top of that, there's the terrifying prospect of men hitting on me... I'm depressed, let me just die.
...Wait, hold on. Think carefully, me. I managed to reincarnate using Nen. Couldn't I change my sex using Nen as well?!
Wait... I feel like I remember an ability like that. ...Dammit! If only I could use [Original Knowledge / Protagonist Perk]! There was definitely something like that in canon... Remember, brain! If you don't remember now, you'll be stuck as a girl forever!
...That's it! I remember!! The game! The game created by Nen users! In that game, there was definitely an item or potion that could swap your gender! As long as I get my hands on that, I can turn back into a guy!! I'll still be able to lose my virginity!!!
All right! Once my body grows up, my first priority will be obtaining that card! Thank goodness. That solves the crisis.
Phew. That was close. For a second there, I thought my life was ruined.
Yaaaawn. Now that relief washed over me, drowsiness is kicking in. A baby's body falls asleep so easily, it's troublesome.
"My, my. Is it bedtime already? Hold on just a moment. ...There, all set. Sleep tight, sweetie."
"Au~"
Thank you so very much for going out of your way to conjure a luxury canopy crib with a dangling baby rattle. Today's milk was strawberry-flavored and truly exquisite. By the way, the feeding before this was banana-flavored.
...Mother is ridiculously high-spec.
Five Years Later
Time passed, and I, Aisha, grew steadily, reaching five years of age.
My physical health is top-notch, entirely thanks to the daily breast milk provided by Mother. ...Yes, even now that my body has grown enough to eat solid food, my daily meals still consist entirely of breast milk...
Of course I want to eat normal food. But everything around here is garbage. Not a single edible thing exists. There are rats and bugs, but I refuse to eat those...
So, I have no choice but to settle for breast milk. ...Though honestly, it's remarkably delicious. I wonder what flavor lunch will be? Breakfast was yogurt-flavored. Next time, I'll ask for something fruity.
By the way, if you're wondering whether my jaw muscles are developing properly, they are. Mother conjured chewing gum for me, so I chew on it regularly. When I asked if she could conjure other foods, she strictly told me, "Mother's milk has the most nutrients, so no." ...A bit strict.
Ah, and the gum's ingredients seem to be derived from breast milk too. High-spec in the most absurdly detailed ways.
Furthermore, regarding shelter from the wind and rain: Mother went ahead and conjured an entire nursery room. ...At first I thought, Is that really necessary?, but in reality, it's a lifesaver. I practiced crawling and standing inside here. It's too hazardous outside, after all.
The room even has a calendar clock with the year, month, and day, so I can track the exact passage of time. Running water, a bathtub, a flush toilet, a mirror, and a weight scale are all fully installed. Truly all-inclusive luxury.
With several years having passed, my body growing, and our lifestyle stabilized, I conducted a Water Divination test to check my current Nen affinity. The result: the leaf spun around while sinking beneath the water—an effect outside the standard five categories. Unquestionably Specialization.
Well, given that [Reincarnation / New Game Plus] succeeded, being a Specialist is only natural. The leaf spinning was likely a lingering trait of Manipulation from my past life.
Identity and Education
Now then, having lived as a girl for five years, my original resolve—to return to being a boy—still remains. And of course, the goal of losing my virginity. However, my manner of speech and internal thoughts have grown embarrassingly girly...
There is a distinct reason for this. Once I grew old enough to speak properly, I addressed Mother using the masculine pronoun "ore". Mother initially corrected me gently: "A girl shouldn't refer to herself as 'ore', dear." But when I repeatedly ignored her warnings, there was one time she got genuinely furious at me...
That was terrifying...
Ever since then, an inescapable subconscious conviction was carved into me: "A girl must behave like a proper girl."
In the beginning, I still tried my best to maintain a boyish tone, but gradually that resistance eroded away. By the time she scolded me a second time with that same intensity, my masculine speech habits vanished cleanly without a trace...
...I suspect that was also one of Mother's Nen abilities. It's unnatural otherwise. If decades had passed living as a female, I could understand, but shifting from a male consciousness to a female mindset in just two to three years is impossible without external influence...
Otaku mindset → Martial arts fanatic mindset → Old man mindset → Plant-like transcendent zen mindset → Back to Otaku mindset around reincarnation → Little girl mindset. ...Even looking at myself, my identity crisis is out of control.
However, as long as I turn back into a guy, everything will be fine!! After all, if "a girl must act like a girl," then once I'm a boy, I'll have no choice but to act like a boy!!
At five years old, I can move my body with remarkable freedom.
Living up to this point, I've realized this physical body possesses extraordinary specs. I haven't compared myself to other kids, but its performance is far beyond my five-year-old self in my previous life. There's no way past-life me could run continuously for an entire hour at age five—and that's without using Nen.
Yet this body did it effortlessly. Having nothing else to do inside the room, I tested my physical capabilities as a form of exercise. I figured my specs would be decent, but for an untrained five-year-old to pull that off...
Could this also be thanks to Mother's milk? The nutritional value must be off the charts, because my body is growing at an astonishing pace.
I'm already significantly larger than an average five-year-old—about the size of a second or third-grade elementary schooler.
Furthermore, my past self trained like an absolute madman. My aura volume, along with my mastery of Nen fundamentals and advanced applications, are already at an absurdly high level... The [Absolute Geass] can truly be called a massive success. Even a hardcore masochist couldn't survive that kind of training regimen.
Well, since I went through the trouble of acquiring these skills, I make sure to practice so they don't rust. Not that I have much else to do besides studying under Mother anyway. ...To think I'd be forced to learn elementary arithmetic all over again at this age.
The Outing to the City
Although I've grown agile enough to move around freely, I still remain inside Meteor City. ...Naturally, there are no other humans around besides Mother and me. This area seems to be classified as a Special Class-A Hazard Zone within Meteor City.
How rude. When such an adorable child and a gorgeous mother live here...!
...Now, why haven't we left Meteor City even though I'm fully mobile? The answer is simple: when we tried to leave, everyone was terrified of us...
When I turned three, I once asked if we could go outside. Mother gladly agreed: "If that's what Aisha-chan wants, shall we go on an outing?"
Bursting with excitement, I stepped outside Meteor City and headed toward a nearby city with Mother. As we approached urban areas, I immediately activated Zetsu to conceal my sinister aura. Radiating that kind of terrifying aura would ensure nobody ever approached me. With Zetsu active, everything should be fine. Confident, we entered the city.
All around us were crowds of people and towering buildings. Ah, a proper modern town after so long! The sound of footsteps, the hum of traffic, news broadcasts playing from screens, the echoing screams of terror... Ah, the nostalgic sights and sounds...
...Wait, echoing screams?
What happened? A bank robbery? Looking around, people were openly staring in our direction in sheer panic... Why? I'm using Zetsu, aren't I? Why are they focused on us?
No, wait. If they were staring at me, I would have sensed their intent immediately—my instincts aren't that dull. Then who are they looking at? Obviously: my Mother standing right next to me. Why? Why are they trembling in fright while staring at Mother?
Looking at Mother beside me, I couldn't see anything out of the ordinary... She was her usual self. Well, she looked a little flustered and confused, unable to understand what was going on.
"I wonder what's wrong with everyone?"
"I don't know... I'll go ask someone. Wait here a moment."
"Don't wander too far, Aisha-chan."
"I know. Besides, if I move more than ten meters away, you'll be pulled along with me anyway."
Saying that, I approached a nearby middle-aged man. ...The poor guy's legs had completely given out.
"Excuse me, what happened?"
"Eeeek?! A-Ah, a kid...? Wh-What the... don't scare me like that..."
Right, I had Zetsu active, so my sudden presence startled him.
"Sorry for startling you. But may I ask, why is everyone so terrified?"
"I-I don't really know. For some reason, my b-body just won't stop shaking..." The man wrapped his arms around himself, shivering violently.
...Strange. Since I'm not releasing any aura, neither civilians nor Nen users should be frightened of me...
What does this mean?
"Wh-What is this monstrous, evil aura?! Who goes there, you fiend?!"
"Pardon? What are you talking about?"
Someone sensed the aura! A Nen user!!
"You may wear the guise of a beautiful woman, but you cannot deceive the eyes of the First-Class Single Beast Hunter, Diou-sama! You are some manner of Magical Beast!! No human could ever radiate such an abhorrent aura!"
A-A professional Hunter?! And a Single-Star Hunter at that! Wait, did he just call Mother a Magical Beast?!
"No doubt you intended to disguise yourself as human to slaughter the city, but you shall not have your way! Rue the day you crossed paths with Diou-sama!!"
Hunters are bad news...! We need to retreat immediately!
"Mother, let's go home!"
"Aisha-chan... all right."
"There's a child too?! What masterclass Zetsu...! But on my honor as the First-Class Double Beast Hunter Diou-sama, I will not let you escape!!"
Why on earth did your rank go up since two sentences ago?!
"Stay back!!"
I unleashed my full-power Ren! If you dare lay a finger on Mother, I will show no mercy!!
Thud.
...The guy instantly foamed at the mouth and passed out cold... Was he really a Single-Star Hunter? Whatever, let's make our escape while we can!
Return to Isolation
Phew. We should be safe once we're back here...
"Are you all right, Mother?"
"I'm quite all right, Aisha-chan. But that was naughty of you, Aisha-chan. You shouldn't be so violent."
"B-But that guy was trying to hurt you, Mother..."
"Never mind about me. What have I always told you? You are a girl, so you must behave like a proper young lady."
"...I'm sorry."
"Mm. As long as you understand. Thank you, sweetheart. For standing up to protect Mother."
"Mhm!"
That was what happened. From that incident, I deduced that Mother emits the same sinister, monstrous aura that I do.
To me, her aura feels completely soothing and warm, but outsiders clearly perceive it differently... If only Mother could use Zetsu or In, but over the past two years of trying, she couldn't master Zetsu. Or rather, it's more accurate to say she cannot use any Nen techniques other than Hatsu.
Over these five years, I've learned that Mother cannot move further than ten meters away from me. If we enter a city in this state, police and Hunters will swarm us. If that happens, I might be fine, but I don't know if I can guarantee Mother's safety...
So, I've temporarily given up on leaving. Until I come up with a viable solution, this place will remain our home.
And so, Meteor City: I look forward to your continued hospitality!