MIKO
I am a horrible person.
It's not that I don't understand what Jude is trying to tell me, it's that … I have been trying not to think about it. If I think about the fact that we aren't really together but instead act like couples whenever we are alone, it breaks my heart.
It's bugging me because Jude is offering me something, but I don't find it enough. I want more, I need more, but he can't give me more, and that is leaving me in this hurtful state, a state that I want to almost break whatever sanity has been brought together and just demand that he at least reconsider.
But I said I would wait, and so I am waiting.
But it's hard because I keep thinking he is going to leave me. He is going to see someone better than me, fall for them and give them everything that he can't give me now. He says he is feeling inadequate and yet when I am with him, I feel inadequate.
