ZEIN
I haven't been myself.
Things have been happening around me, to me, and yet … it has all felt like I am just sedated on a chair, and everything is a whirlwind around me while I remain there, staring blankly ahead, still in my head, and not knowing what to do.
I have been doing well in terms of work, though, despite the disassociation. Right now, I can confidently say I am doing well workwise but terribly in my personal life. Ever since …
Ever since Andre and I … I don't even know what to call what we did, because I don't know what to call it. I can't say that I have been at peace, feeling good about myself, ever since that day, because that memory has turned into a worm that is eating and piercing my heart every single moment.
Awake and asleep.
