All of this is really much better than she had expected.
At the beginning, she just thought that Shen Lingxing looked more pleasing compared to her other blind dates. He also went on a lot of blind dates, so she thought he might also have the intention of getting married. She approached it with a try-and-see attitude but ended up with unexpected gains.
At first, she didn't have much confidence in this marriage and even harbored the worst expectations, which sometimes made her a bit awkward.
She dared not take it seriously. Deep down, she had a sense of fear, thinking that if she didn't invest her true feelings, she wouldn't be too hurt if they divorced. Therefore, she never fully invested herself in this marriage, never actively trying to understand Shen Lingxing, nor deliberately learning about his family.
