03/12
...Third year of high school, Xiao Li is the only friend I have, she is my childhood friend, she would always try to "protect" me.
She is a nice person, she always helps me whenever I have a problem.
"Feng Wulian do you see that girl over there" she said staring at the girl.
"Yeah, what about her.."
"Well she is all alone, You know what? Lets go talk to her!!" Xiao Li went over to her and started talking to her, grinning.
"Ah, right, my name is Xia Qingling, im a transfer student" Said the shy girl.
As she introduces herself, a guy walks towards her, he was tall, short dark hair..pretty.
"Who are these people, Qingling? Your friends?"
I couldnt stop staring at him, he was handsome, so handsome, I felt my heart skipping beats.
It was...like love at first sight.
"Ah, let me introduce him, he is my brother, Xia Shen. We both transferred here because of our family's work." She said with a smile in her face.
"OHHH SO YOU BOTH ARE SIBLINGS? THATS AMAZING!! I wish me and Feng Wulian were siblings, I would be the best sister ever." Xiao Li said, I didnt see her face expression, I was looking at Xia Shen.
Suddenly, he smiled at me.
I immediately looked away, blushing.
"Feng Wulian, right? Lets hangout together"
...his voice was comforting.
"Yeah, sure.." I tried my best to not sound panicked, his gaze on me made me more calm.
I couldn't concentrate in class, I kept thinking of him, I couldn't stop thinking of him, he was in my mind the whole time.
Will my grades drop? I can't think about anything other than him.
When the bell rings, he would come to me to hangout, we would play football together, sometimes even volley. If we were too tired we would just hangout with Xiao Li and Xia Qingling.
He made me happy, I learnt that his birthday was in October. 17th of October...
I'll remember that, he likes music, a lot. He plays the drums often, even when he is stressed, he also writes songs, he let me read them and honestly..his writing and lyrics are amazing, even his handwriting is pretty.
I sang some of them at home, the lyrics were amazing, there was a song titled "Judgement" it was about a girl that got bullied for being 'different'.
It felt....close.
03/16
Xia Qingling was absent, Xia Shen told us that she got a fever.
Xiao Li was worried, of course, she is her friend but the truth is, she actually likes her, not as a friend but as in wanting to date her.
For me, it was obvious, she doesnt know that I figured it out, but judging by her gaze and how she smiles at her, its pretty obvious she wants to date her.
After school I told Xia Shen if he could let Xiao Li see her, he said 'sure' and told her their address.
"Wanna hang out?"
"Sure, where?" Hanging out with him outside of school..
"Hmmm, just follow me, it will be fun" Xia Shen was smiling, his smile was so beautiful, no words can explain how beautiful and sweet his smile is.
We went to... An amusement park? Ah, I cant handle such places... Its really crowded and im afraid of heights.
"Woah, theres alot of people here, come on, lets go" He says as he grabs my hand.
Huh? My face felt...warm. I was blushing.
He was holding my hand, he touched me..
I couldnt help but smile the whole time we were holding hands.
As we were walking, he saw a... big rollercoaster???
...I will throw up.
"Lets check this one out!" With a big grin..
Fuck...
I was screaming the whole time, I was scared but... He didnt let go of my hand every time we got into these rides, I was scared of heights but I was more scared of being obvious about my feelings for him.
As we were leaving the amusement park, a girl approached him and asked for his number... I wasnt surprised, he kept getting attention from many girls, even at school.
He gave her his number this time though...this girl was from our school, but he always rejected them, but this time he didn't.
My heart ached.
I told him that i had to go and left.
...if he starts dating someone, I'll support him, as long as he is happy...