Following day I woke up anxious.i kept on wondering what or how he would react .There was something about that situation that made me feel different.all along I did not care but I cared about him .I did not want him to feel hurt at all,it was betrayal to his love and commitment.
The thoughts flooded my brain as I moved about the house preparing myself for work.i kept on thinking about him,how was I to face him.
I knew that he deserved better than me but I was already into him.Hence I opted to take my chances on him and see if he could be deceived.There was no way I would tell him the truth.
In that rainy day I took a quick bath, moisturized myself and wore my clothes.
I aimed to look as gorgeous as possible so to weaken him.As cold as it was I opted for my red dress with red heels.i knew that there was no way he could reject me in that.i also managed to put on my black blazer since it was cold.Then I headed to work.
At that time I was still working as I teacher in the big city.i had just graduated from the university and already applied in some jobs.luckly for me I got a new job as soon as I graduated.
I was a very intelligent young lady,I passed even in circumstances that were suppose to trigger or weaken me up.hence the university was proud to have a student like myself.
I remember back then when we would be having an exam or test, everyone in the room would be scared, confused.some would be sweeting and shivering because the had not studied the at least the night before.
You could easily see it in their eyes that they were crying for help .Just as they were scratching their heads,biting on their pens the time would also be ticking hence in a blink of an eye the remaining time would be less than an hour.
By that time I would be done.They turned heads as I walked through the runway to submit my finished paper.some would be astonished by how quick and dedicated I was to my academic work.some would envy me as if we had not been given the same opportunities.
Those were the ones who longed for my downfall .They would casually ask me silly questions just so to fustrates me.They would try to bully me but they did not stand a chance .I was an. Alpha my confidence spoke for it self.i was never frightened by any one or anything.
To me respect mattered more but it was to be exchanged to someone who deserves it . someone who values themselves.
As I walked down the runway to some that would be an eye opener.They realised that they could never finished the paper if they continued sitting and waiting for a miracle to come to them.
Those who had access to documents or phone which had the right information to boost them in their paper decided to sneak it in and start coping from it as soon as the teachers looked away.
Their eyes would be wildly opened,ears pointed and waiting for any chance so to complete their paperwork.whilst on the other hand those that had no access to such would decided to write what ever came to their minds maybe some would be correct.
In no time,time would be finished and the exam would be over.Those that copied would have higher makes and those that wrote from their memory would be average or below average.i would be the top of the class,I would pass and my lectureres would be impressed.
My determination opened doors for me.my determination gave me self confidence.hence I got the job.
When I first got the job I was a bit sceptical.i feared that I would be exhausted and bored because I had finally left the scene of being in a classroom but things were different.The fact that I was the leader of the class now made me feel spontaneous.
I loved implementing different styles of teaching that made it's easier and more enjoyable to the children of my class.I fixed what lacked from my past experiences being a student.
I wanted to be respected whilst also being approachable.my aim was to provide not just education but a safe space for them.where they would be themselves without trying to fit in in that way they would be more confident and trusting on themselves.
I loved my job.i loved the impact I had made.i loved it even more when I met him.He was also teaching in the same school I was working it.