It's a wound, he aches for her yet is conflicted by the fear of losing control again, offering his true heart only to face the betrayal of his feelings being trampled on once more!
He also feels pain; no one knows how much her departure back then hurt him! He even took a long time to overcome his despair, an experience and suffering that he will never forget in this lifetime.
He clutched the breakup letter she had handwritten, drowning his sorrows in his room daily, even wishing to die from the intoxication rather than face the reality of her leaving.
That letter, every word, he still remembers clearly to this day. How heartless and cold-blooded she must have been to leave just a letter with family to be passed on to him after leaving.
How can he not hate?
The relationship he cherished so much, the girl he loved so deeply, telling him in the letter that he never had real feelings for her and that it was all just a game.
