Levi thought about Jun that night. He had seen her on the street with her fingers freezing and had listened to that voice coming from inside and given Jun a helping hand.He took her to the clinic,made her warm up, even allowed her to stay with him.
But why? Why was he so nice to Jun? He usually helped people and sent them away quickly,why didn't this boy go?
Levi has never been in love before this time.He had friends, of course, but he had never felt the word love in his chest, he had never tasted what it felt like. But when he saw Jun on the street like that, he knew that the feeling in him was not pity. He had pitied many people before, but no, it wasn't the pity they felt for Jun, it was a feeling that both hurt and made flowers bloom in him.
Yes ,that's what he felt when he looked at Jun.
It had been 3 months since the boy had come here , and in these three months Levi had carefully studied Jun.The boy was about 18 or 19 years old,he had auburn hair ,honey-colored eyes,a beautiful smile.He was taller than Levi. He was a little skinny for his age because he lived on the street, but he had gained a little weight during the 3 months he spent here,he was not rude and he was afraid of Levi.He also did every job he was given and learned quickly.
Levi has been at war with the thoughts in his head for these 3 months.He had lived without pressure from his family or anyone else, but the thoughts in his head and the feelings in his chest had been giving him a hard time for a few months.He wanted to ask Jun a lot of things,why he was on the street,did he have anyone,how long he had been staying on the street.... the questions went on and on like this,but Levi was just content with giving orders to Jun, not getting too close to him, and not bringing anyone close to him.
It was very funny and annoying, the people who came to the clinic could easily talk and laugh with Jun, but Levi couldn't do it, or rather, he didn't, because he had feelings for a man he never knew he had never known.
And in England in 1887, it was not normal to have emotional feelings for a man.
He said that we are both men, how can I think of such a thing from the inside.He said no, I'm just an older brother who helps Jun, so even if I wanted to, he wouldn't want a child.He said I need to get my mind together, 'You're 24 Levi you're 24! get your mind together and send the boy away!'
For the next few weeks, Jun was constantly sent outside to pick up some supplies.So sometimes he would leave the clinic in the morning and find Levi at the farthest place in town to pick up what he wanted and bring it in the evening.That's why he could only see Levi in the morning and evening,he didn't even have time to ask him questions.Levi was constantly busy with patients, and after dinner that evening, he seemed to ignore Jun.
Levi had only one thing going through his head, 'we're both men and it's impossible, I have to push him away', in which he was constantly sending Jun somewhere, thinking that maybe he would go on his own. Levi sends Jun to pick up supplies, and then he couldn't wait for his semester.
He said I must be crazy inside, I'm crazy.
Jun was returning from where he went to get supplies to the clinic again, as he had been doing for days. It was now the month of May, the weather had warmed up, some trees were in bloom, and birds were chirping.Even the streets looked more beautiful to his eyes. It was a little late, and Jun knew at what hours the streets were dangerous.He thought he was almost to the clinic, just then someone called out to him:
-hey! Heyy! Jun!
When Jun turned towards the direction from which the sound came, he encountered the person he knew and hated the most while begging on the street.
-Hi,Knat,said Jun.
-Hi,hi. I see you go back and forth every day.Owww, you've gained a lot of weight, so you're eating well,good, good, Knat said.
-Yes, I'm fine, said Jun.
-You moved in with a doctor,you were helping him. What a lucky boy you are, Jun,tell me, how did you do this? Knat said with a dirty dirty grin.
-He,I mean, the doctor just took pity on me,Jun said.
-Owwww how sweet,maybe he'll feel sorry for me too ,huh , what do you think? Said Knat. As he said this, the dirty look on his face had gradually grown and there was a disgusting look in his eyes.
- I should go now, Jun said.
If he got into a fight with this guy, he would get beaten to death, he was still not strong, and he wanted to go to the clinic,Levi's side was safe.He knew what this man was doing to others while he was staying on the street, so he should have left immediately. To do this, he took a few steps and tripped on Knat's trip and fell face down to the ground,the materials in his hand were scattered around and broken, and he also had a pain in his knee.
-Ahh,said Jun.
-Sorry, said Knat with a grin.But don't worry, your doctor will cure you right away, won't he, little Jun!'While saying this, he pulled Jun's hair from one side and brought their faces closer together.
At this moment, someone took Knat's hands off Jun and punched Knat and knocked him down.
-Get out! He said, a strong voice.
Knat was just looking,what happened, this man suddenly appeared next to him.Besides, the punch he ate was very strong and had Decapitated his lip, and in a few minutes he had already quietly entered the pus from the alleyways and disappeared from sight.
Jun knew the owner of the voice,so he was a little relieved.They went to the clinic together in silence ...
-Materials ...it's always broken,Jun said. Her fear had passed a little, but this time she was afraid of Levi ...
- You're hurt,let's clean the wound,Levi said.
-I'm sorry, Jun said I'll pay for the supplies.
-The wound on his leg is a little deep, but the ones on his palms are just scratches,Levi said it'll heal in a few days.
Levi's gaze had softened, but the battle inside him was not over.