Everything is settled.
It's like an exciting and thrilling dream.
There's always a time to wake up.
After waking up, I always feel a little scared.
LiShuang did not continue to stay in the quiet residence.
She just returned to the lonely Li family and still sat on the single sofa on the balcony.
There was a glass of red wine on the round table beside her. She put her feet on the sofa, curled up in it, and looked up at the stars in the sky.
"The moonlight tonight is so beautiful, don't you think?"
"BaJie."
LiShuang forced a smile.
She was not lonely since she was a child, she experienced the warmth of the world——
At that time, LiShuang had a well-behaved mushroom-shaped haircut and was far shorter than an adult's waist. She held high the homework assigned by her school teacher, her eyes curved into crescents with a smile.
"Look, Mom!"
LiShuang was not sure what her mother looked like. She only remembered that she was very gentle and beautiful. Many people said that marrying her was a blessing for the Li family.
"I'm back! I bought some watermelon. I'll freeze it and you can eat it at home this afternoon."
The man turned the key to open the door, but before anyone came in, a whole big watermelon and his happy laughter came in first.
Then a woman's gentle voice was heard.
"The meal is ready, remember to wash your hands, and take Shuangshuang to wash her hands as well. She drew a family portrait today and was praised by the teacher! Remember to buy a photo frame when you get home from work tonight, and we'll frame it and put it up."
This is the home in LiShuang's impression.
It was a house of more than 90 square meters. My mother was an art student, and the decoration of the house was also very artistic, making that loving home even more cozy.
My father is an elementary school teacher. He is not the serious person as the stereotype suggests, but he is very particular about his clothes. He always says that he dresses that way to be worthy of my mother and that way he won't embarrass her when standing next to her.
The house, which was always tidy and cleaned by her mother, would always be messed up by LiShuang's endless energy as a child. In the end, her father would come home from work and clean it up bit by bit with a smile on his face.
LiShuang doesn't understand the meaning of marriage.
But I understand the feeling of happiness.
…
But she never thought that one day her paintings would fade.
"Are you really going to go with that man? Don't you want this family?!"
"It was you who stayed out all night several times. Did you have any social engagements at work? Am I not tired? Is this home mine alone?"
"Dad...Mom..."
LiShuang heard a very heated argument that night, but when she thought about it carefully, it seemed not to be the first time.
She was persuaded to return to her room.
I only heard the final result of this negotiation——
"divorce."
Not long in the evening, when LiShuang saw her mother turn around and leave without any reluctance, her father told her.
"Your mother left with that man and will never come back. She doesn't want you anymore."
LiShuang looked at the figure. The "taste of mother" that was engraved in her bones seemed to be leaving.
She ran, chased after her, and grabbed the gentle woman who was much taller than her but would always bend down to touch her head.
"Mom! Don't go..."
"Shuangshuang…"
LiShuang could tell that her mother seemed reluctant to let go. The panic of losing her seemed a little strange. Her tears didn't hurt at all, but fell on their own.
"Mom... don't leave. Don't you want me anymore? Don't you want dad anymore? Do you only want that uncle?"
The always gentle mother looked at LiShuang with complicated eyes for the first time.
"Shuangshuang, mom told you that mom didn't promise anything to that uncle. She just had enough of your dad. From now on...can you stop hating mom?"
LiShuang held her tightly and shook her head.
"No, I don't want you to leave. You are being selfish... You don't want me anymore..."
The word "selfish" is what LiShuang's father always says when they quarrel. The teacher also taught that people who don't consider others and only care about themselves are selfish.
At that time, LiShuang just felt that her mother didn't want her anymore. She felt very sad and only cared about leaving...
She is selfish.
After hearing what LiShuang said, the woman was stunned and pushed LiShuang's hand away. She seemed very angry, but more disappointed.
"You just believe what he says..."
LiShuang was too weak to hold on tightly, nor could she catch up with her mother's pace, let alone the speeding car.
She was left without a mother, and the final goodbyes were unhappy.
This is a scar, a bloody wound filled with emotions, and it is also a feeling that LiShuang slowly understood after she grew up.
My mother must have suffered a lot of grievances back then, which is why she resolutely chose to divorce, but she stood against her mother.
If she had hugged her mother properly back then, instead of hurting her with those moral concepts and making her feel heartbroken.
Does mom come back to see her often?
LiShuang thought of the past, took the red wine and drank some in big gulps, then put it down again, looked up at the stars with moist eyes.
Perhaps it is because of the regret I have for my mother for so many years and the maternal love I have lacked for so many years.
When LiShuang was in high school, her teacher told her to go to the hospital before she finished her last class.
The man on the hospital bed looked normal.
But LiShuang knew that he would leave her very soon.
LiShuang sat by the bed, listening to his plans, his regrets, his assumptions and complaints.
"It's all your mother's fault. If she hadn't been so cruel back then and taken good care of you at home, I wouldn't have ended up like this, and you wouldn't have had such a hard time..."
Obviously...
It's obvious that the father has good intentions and is just worried that she will have no one to take care of her in the future.
But LiShuang recalled in her mind the memories she had heard and seen in her childhood, as well as the blame others had given her mother over the years. She couldn't help but speak up for her mother in a low voice.
"Mom is just pursuing a better self. She is not running away with anyone."
Perhaps it was these words that hurt my father, hurt his heart as a husband, and hurt his image as a father.
"What do you mean?" The man was excited. "I didn't go home because of a few school outings... I've told you so much for so many years, and you think it's my problem?"
LiShuang wanted to calm him down, but he held her hand tightly, choking her.
"If you believe in your mother, go find her... I've been here for so many years..."
"If I had known you would believe her,...I would have raised you in vain..."
LiShuang cried and explained for a long time, but her father just held his hands tightly and refused to let go until he was found dead, and then they pried open his stiff fingers.
She lost her dad again.
Still unhappy, he would never come to see her again.
…
LiShuang looked at the stars and gently wiped away her tears with her fingertips.
She has a perfect answer in her mind, but she will never know what the standard answer is.
Because her mother never looked for her, she also died in that world...
But it doesn't matter.
She no longer needed to know what the standard answer was.
Because she believed that must be the answer in her heart.
I believe that they all have their own reasons, I believe that the answer in her heart is right, I believe that she is the only one who did something wrong——
That warm family portrait will never fade again.
"Buzz——"
"Beep beep—"
The cell phone on the round table and the car horn outside the house sounded at the same time.
LiShuang sniffed, adjusted her mood, unlocked her phone and stood up.
Unknown number: [down]
LiShuang then realized that she had never made any notes for ShenJi. She added contacts with her fingertips while opening the door and going downstairs.
When she was halfway up the stairs—
"So fast?"
A quiet, playful and smiling voice echoed in the living room connected to the stairs and reached my ears.
LiShuang put down her phone and frowned in amusement.
"Why are you dressed like this at night? Are you going to make money?"
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By the way, some people don't know why BaJie left.
To explain, BaJie had said before that there was no danger, so why didn't it go back yet?
BaJie is a [it is better to live a miserable life than to die] system.
Once she is able to survive safely, its mission will be accomplished.
So with LiWanwan's death and the absence of any hidden dangers, it was determined that the mission was accomplished, so it was time for it to leave.