SAI SHINU
She continued talking "The life created when you came to the equation. You either be the hero or the killer but not both"
"It's the same case with a person who is free or slave. You either will be the owner or the hero of that person. You can't be both" She said
"Now you have to be the kille-". "No" I shouted cutting her speak. I said "why did it have to be like this? Why… is this the price?"
She utter a thing that left me more broken than seeing my father's death every night "the reason is… because time only moves forward and someone must carry the weight of the endings"
Her senile widened as she said "This time it's just happened to be you". I took a deep breath accepting the situation fate has put me into"
"If I don't everything would stop. Everything" I said and she replied immediately "I know. I felt it the moment you touched your blade. The void itself shivered"
I looked at the blade in my hand "I hate this thing , I hate what it makes me but-"
She cut my speak and said "but It's the only way right?". I placed my gaze at her and she had a wide smile. She made me smile even at this crucial moment.
She said "Don't hate yourself. Turn that hate into love. Remember love can bring hate but hate cannot bring love. Make the impossible possible and do it. Find love in you and make a family"
I stood up to my feet. I looked at her almost as if they were fading away. I said "I don't know how to say goodbye"
She said with a smile "you don't have to m. We were never meant to say goodbye especially in this situation, I just wanted to say thank you"
I said "Thank you… thank you for everything. For life. For love. For forgiving me even now". I felt some tears rolling from my eyes to my cheeks.
My mother said "I was never here to stay. Just to guide you through this dark voyage. In the end you were the light, my son. Even now… you are"
I slowly raised the blade to the air. She was lying down to the floor. She was calm I could tell. She had accepted the unfair ending in this world.
I took a deep breath and I asked "Will it hurt?"and she replied "Only for a moment. Then… it will all make sense"
After she said that she gave a last looking at me, her son, her everything… in this world.
I gave her one last smile to remember. After that she slowly closed her eyes and remained still on the floor.
I gripped my blade harder to make it quicker. I just wanted the pain to last the least time possible.
I started lowering my azure valley. The void pulsed. At a brief moment the swing of my blade had been completed.
My mother's light extinguished not with violence but with peace. The vast universe, the void I was the same at first but after that something changed.
Something new lingered. It was warm with great and beautiful scent. It was a trace of her, my mother.
I turned around. I wouldn't have the courage to see her corpse. I let her get consumed from my crimson rift.
She would be surrounded by flowers. The only way I could give her some sort of burial in order to achieve peace.
For a moment there was only silence. It was peaceful. I looked in the dark sky and whispered "if the time moves forward, I will carry you with me. Till the end"
After that my astral gate started to fading away but for some reason I felt unconscious to ground.