I only watch in horror as he drags me toward the couch, sits down, and pulls me down onto his lap.
"Are you playing hard to get? I know you want this too," he says and cups my face, claiming my lips for a kiss in one swift move.
'Oh goddess, what is wrong with this man?' I inwardly scream. But my treacherous body responded to him as if I were tasting the most addictive wine. The taste of his lips was like a delicacy I've been craving all my life.
I feel his hands begin to touch my neck, caressing my shoulders and going lower to cup my breasts, making me dizzy and hot as intense emotions arise within me.
But in the next second his cold words at the hospital rang in my mind like a wake-up call: "Send her back in there; that thing inside her must be terminated! Immediately!"
"Alpha. She's dead."
"That's great."
It was as if I'd been struck by lightning as I came back to my senses. Then, the pain, betrayal, and loss of my unborn pup—all those emotions coursed through me as I bit his lower lip so hard that the metallic taste of blood filled my mouth.
He hissed, his hold around me loosening as he looked at me with eyes burning with fury. He opens his mouth, about to say something, but I beat him to it.
"I didn't know the almighty alpha of the Crimson Shadow pack has an unusual kink of fucking slaves against their will. It makes me disgusted!" I spat with venom, getting away from him, but he was faster.
He catches me; the next second, he slams me against the wall and holds my neck in a deadly grip as if he were going to snap my neck in two and growls with a murderous voice.
"Repeat what you just said."
I could only shake my head, trying to get out of his grip as my eyes glistened with tears. I felt all my breath leaving me as I raised my hands and used my fingers to scratch his hand off me.
Fiercely.
"Let… go…" I choke, feeling my eyes rolling back dangerously.
"You are mine! Caroline. And if you want me to punish you and make you know who you belong to, I'm ready to teach you submission!" He snarls.
His lustful eyes linger over my lips as his thumb brushes over the lower one, parting them as he presses his body into mine.
I could feel his hard bulge pressing my tummy as he claimed my lips again for a domineering kiss. His grip around my neck loosens so I can breathe through the kiss, but his fingers still remain there, not letting go entirely.
I don't know what has come over him that he was behaving as if he was mad.
In my previous life he was so considerate and gentle, and I was naturally willing. 'Could it be that he was always like this and I was the one that couldn't see?'
Tears fell from my eyes as I felt powerless against him; it was as if the past was about to repeat itself. The salty liquid fell on my lips until I began to taste my tears through the kiss.
He pulls away from me with a confused look on his face.
"Why are you crying? Are you so unwilling to be with me?" His voice was tender, as if he were helpless against my antics.
But I knew I shouldn't be moved by his momentary gentleness.
I knew he was just pretending. He only wanted to get into my pants. He will discard me afterward, once again leading to my untimely demise, and that I'll never allow to repeat, so this time I didn't hesitate.
Seeing he was distracted, I lifted my knee with all my might and decisively kicked him in his groin.
He let go of me and bent over in pain, looking at me in shock and with a hurt expression on his face.
I took the chance to widen the distance between us and raced for the door.
"Caroline…!" he grits through clenched teeth after me when I grab the doorknob, ready to leave. But I pause at the last moment, turning to look at him, yet I feel no pity toward him; if there's anything, it's hatred.
So intense it hurts.
"I hate you!" I declare before slamming the door shut behind me.
I ran down the stairs, my legs weak and wobbly, my entire body trembling, but I didn't stop; I couldn't risk him catching up to me. He was the alpha, after all.
I kept running.
Running until I reached my small, secluded cabin at the edge of the forest, I got in and locked the door. Putting in place all the defensive measures I put in place to keep at bay unmated wolves, and also in case of an attack on our pack, since I was abandoned and left here to suffer the secondhand wrath of perpetrators if they conquer our eastern border and successfully infiltrate the pack.
I walked to my small bed, climbed on, and hugged my knees to my chest as I tried to calm my racing heart, listening to the sound of crickets, my glistening eyes fixed on the flame in the old lantern at the corner.
'I will think of the consequences of my actions later, but right now, all that I could think of was that I had finally changed my fate. I will no longer bring an unwanted child into this cruel world.'
I begin to hum a lullaby my mom and dad used to sing to me when I was little. Their faces when they look at me, especially that of my dad. When he would cup my cheek and tell me he loves me, and I should sleep like a bird in the sky, because he would be my superhero, watching over me through the entire night to protect me from the bad guys.
"Daddy loves you very much, pumpkin." His voice echoes in my head, as if he were here with me.
"I love you, too, Daddy." I reply, tears escaping my eyes, and soon, I drift to sleep, dreaming about what would have been if none of this had happened.