SEBASTIAN
I've been awoken, but this time there isn't anyone on the bed next to me, but mostly, I have not had a dream about Jezzy, I haven't had a dream about Jezzy in a long time, I don't even feel what he feels anymore, I can't see into his thoughts I can't communicate with him using my mind anymore.
I don't know if it's because he lives far away, or if it's because he's a God now or if it's because he doesn't have feelings for me anymore. Now that would suck, that would really suck and that would really hurt me.
Because even though I keep saying that I need to get over Jezzy, I don't think it's working, nothing's working. I have tried and tried and nothing. It's almost like he's cast some spell on me. And I know it's not really a spell it's easier to say that than to admit that I'm in love with him.
