I remember a day when Lucien was just a fiction , never imagined it to be real. It has been one and half years that I realized that Lucien wasn't just a parallel character , but someone who made me realise the true value of existence itself.
It was 9 pm I suddenly woke up from a nap . I still felt dizzy ,I took a carton of coffee and drew the curtain, cool breeze touched my soul as never before,through a wide open window . I went out , roamed garden till late hour , looked at sky and wondered
"it is not about I can't do , it is about I don't want to do" .
Staring at stars till late night as usual and felt something weird, looked around and found a tall man of about 6 ft wearing black suit,veiny hands and black shoes but face remain blur to my eyes .I asked
Who are you?
Your illusion. He replied
I tried to get close to him, tried to touch him but everything disappeared .
Foolish thing came from nowhere and disappeared all of sudden . I murmured to myself.
Actually I didn't take it it seriously because I was pretty sure that it might be my illusion. I had been diagnosed with severe anxiety ,had many anxiety attacks, felt lonely. Doctor told me illusion might happen in this case.I had always been lonely in those days, only writing was my passion.
I had never fallen in love with someone until then . I never considered myself to be loved because I was cold and rude .
The doctor told me to write if possible, to reduce stress . Since that day I started to write . It felt so relieving because I had never described my passions with anyone as I described on paper. I began writing for most of the day and got used to write . I developed intrest in writing but I always wrote fiction because I believed people weren't worthy of being trusted .
One night I dreamt of a handsome boy , in morning I hardly remembered all the details but I wove it into my new novel , the boy had curly hair and a cheerful smile,I made the boy a fictional character of my novel and decided to name him Lucien as it was just a ray of light to my dream ,but shone beautifully . This novel of mine has always been my favourite and readers believed it was my masterpiece novel, everyone admired the novel and characters and I gained fame . With the passage of time I fell in love with the character. I always wanted to meet him despite being fictional, but nothing happened as per my wishes.
After half an year of completing my novel ,I went through the illusion.