I woke up sometime in the afternoon, I felt sick to my stomach and my head was throbbing and getting hotter, hotter, and hotter by the second. I looked out the window and saw dark rain pouring down, the whole room was gloomy. I tried getting onto my feet and slipped, but the second time I managed. My nose was bleeding all over the place and was in pain.
I walked to the bathroom and closed the door behind me, I turned the faucet on and looked in the mirror. My eyes were more clear but my face was a disaster. I bowled my hands up and splashed hot water onto my face, I put both of my hands into my hair and looked down into the water.
"Why am I doing this? What's the good outcome?" I lifted my hands and grabbed a shaving cream bottle and threw it across the bathroom. "What's wrong with me!" I cried. I sat down on the floor and began crying; I banged my head on the door and looked up on the roof to hear the rain, my whole body felt weak. Scrawny and weak.
"God help me," I whispered to myself. Just stay in the bathroom, stay there for eternity for no more pain. I looked down at my hands, all blooded up from my nose. "Why should I stay?" Because the one who thought that is a dumbass, do everyone a favor and steal cocaine, everyone knows that you're broke. Grow a pair and do it!
I got up from the floor, turned off the faucet, and walked out of the bathroom. I went over to my bed and sat down, just thinking to myself. "These aren't my thoughts, I wouldn't do any of these things. I don't steal, and I don't hide from anything!" Not true, let's be honest, you wanted to kill the fatass from the gas station, why didn't you do it? It would've been fun! I was shaky and put my hands on my ears, trying to stop myself from thinking these personality thoughts.
"Get out of my head, you aren't real and you're just another bad memory." Just steal something already! No kill someone while at it! Don't listen to them, hide yourself from harm's way!!
"I SAID GET OUT!!" I got up and threw the table onto the ground, I went over to the wall and banged my hands onto it. "YOU AREN'T REAL, NONE OF THIS IS REMOTELY REAL!!"
I got to my bed again, dropped down and lay there, I was turned to the further wall, tears streaming down my eyes. "None of this is real, get out," I whispered, I clenched my hair and curled up into a ball in my suit. Good, rage a little bit more. Before the thought finished, I fell asleep again.