After Lucas returned, I stopped pretending to be quiet.
I stopped folding my feelings into shapes I could hide.
Instead, I started remembering.
Actively.
Violently.
There were places in the house where I used to hide things.
Teeth.
Notes.
Buttons from shirts torn in punishment.
Things I thought didn't matter.
Things I tried to forget.
But they mattered now.
Because Lucas remembered them all.
And he wanted me to dig them up.
So I did.
Behind the dresser:A broken shoelace stained with blood. Mine. I remember not crying when it happened. That was the day I learned pain is quieter than screaming.
Under the floorboard beside my bed:A drawing of a woman with no face. I didn't give her one because I didn't know which version to remember—kind, cruel, or nothing at all.
Inside the vent behind the hallway mirror:A spoon. Burnt. Bent. I never understood why she used it, only that afterward, I couldn't sleep. Lucas said, "She needed silence." I think he meant mine.
Each thing I found made the house feel smaller.
Heavier.
Less like a home.
More like a coffin with windows.
Lucas didn't help me dig.
But he watched.
Always watched.
When I pulled the last item out—the cloth doll with a sewn-shut mouth—he finally spoke.
"Do you see it now?"
"What?" I asked.
"This house was never haunted."
"It was just full."
I sat on the floor, surrounded by memories that smelled like dust and old bruises.
And I understood.
I wasn't uncovering the past.
I was inviting it back in.
And this time…
I wasn't going to hide it.
I was going to wear it.