Chapter 5
★ Paloma's POV ★
~Flashback~
"Miss Del Sol, Our scan shows that the effect of your drug overdose has done quite a lot of harm to you... Emotionally of course. "The doctor said adjusting his glasses properly.
"So what does that mean?... What's wrong with me is it this serious?. "I asked worriedly.
"This clearly states that you have a case of 'PTSD' which has brought up a minor issue of bipolar disorder... This may include severe depression. "He said with a serious expression on his face.
"Well... Can it be treated?. "
"Actually... I'm not quite sure since we don't know how serious your case might be.. So I'll advice you attend some therapy sessions... Here. "He said as he wrote somethings on a piece of paper and gave to me.
"I've prescribed some drugs that'll help you stay sane when you go through an episode... Take it twice a day. Once after sunrise and once before sunset... Make sure you don't miss it so you can avoid making a scene."
"Thank you doctor. "
"My pleasure... You can get these pills at the clinic on the first floor... You may leave now. "He said and I left.
~End of flashback~
Twice...
I accidentally skipped the drugs twice.
Last week I had a fight with Cassie and today with Havana.
I really didn't mean to... But no matter how hard I try I just have the pant up frustration that I try not to let out.
"Deep breaths in.. Deep breaths out. "I said as I try to calm myself down just like the therapist taught me.
Knocks...
"Come in."I replied.
"Paloma what was that all about?. "Madison asked as soon as she walked in.
"I'm sorry.. I didn't mean it. "I said as I looked down apologetically.
"You didn't mean it?... Girl that was rude.. Extremely rude. "
"I'm sorry. "
"You're apologizing to Havana first thing tomorrow morning... But first apologize to Cassie. "She said sternly as she walked out the door.
Sigh...
I walk out of my room to Cassie's...
Standing outside the door contemplating if I should or shouldn't knock.
I summon enough courage and finally knock on the door.
Knock... Knock...
"Who's there?. "Cassie asked.
"Um.. It's me. "
Silence...
"Get out of my f*cking door Paloma.. You know you're the last person I want to talk too right now. "She said indifferently.
Well.. You might be wondering what brought about that. Let's run it back.
~Flashback~
Door opens...
Door closes...
"It's 12am in the morning. "Cassie said as I walked in.
"Well we had a full day today... You can't blame me. "I said as I walked to the fridge to get bottled water.
"You know you can always find another job and a better one at that. If you want I could always be of help to you. "She said walking towards me.
"Look... Cassie don't start.. I mean why do you even hate my job your sister is a dancer too now isn't she. "I said as I turned to look at her.
"She's not my sister... And beside she doesn't go around dancing naked like a whor.... "She said before shutting her mouth.
"Whore... You're calling me a whore.? "I yelled.
"What's going on?. I'm trying to sleep here. "Havana said as she walked downstairs rubbing her still sleepy eyes.
"If you're gonna call me a whore at least look at yourself first... I didn't go sleeping around at the age of seventeen now did I.. No I didn't... I didn't get pregnant for my father now did I.. No I didn't... I didn't give birth to a bastard child and got chased out of the house by Mamà now did I... No I didn't. "I yelled and everywhere feel silent.
"Your own mother hates you so much she rather protect her rapist of a husband than you... Guess Black bitches aren't as pure as they seem now. "
"And oh.. Remind me where you little bastard is anyway.. He hated having a bitch of a mother like you so he f*cking died. "
Smack...
"I would take anything from you.. But don't you dear insult my
child. "Cassie said before withdrawing her hand that left a mark on my face before leaving for her bedroom.
"Paloma that was... "Havana said but shut up as I threw her a glare before walking out the door to the rooftop for a smoke.
Did I regret it?... Yes... Yes I did.
~End of flashback~
"I just want to talk... Please. "I said softly against the door.
Silence..
Door unlocks..
I enter the room and I must say.. Its quite simple not as 'Luxurious' as Madison's or as 'Girly' as Havana's or as 'Emo' looking as mine... It's more like a library.. Books arranged everywhere...
"You have something to say or you're just gonna keep staring around. "She said.
"You're room is.... Magical.? "
"You're thinking or you're saying.? "She asked seating on a bean bag.
"I'm saying. "I said as she muffled a thanks.
"Um... Cassie.. I just wanna say.. I'm... I'm sorry... I'm sorry for all I said that day I really didn't mean it. "I said as I sat on the bean bag opposite her.
Silence...
"Please forgive me.. I know you wanted what's best for me. "I said gripping her hand desperately.
"It's okay... I understand. "She muttered.
"I really didn't mean to mention your son... I know how much you loved him. "
"It's okay... its all in the past now. "She said as a smile graced her lips.
Silence...
"Paloma.? "She called.
"Hmmm.? "
"I've always wanted to asked tho... Why haven't you quited you job yet.? "She asked.
Sigh...
"I'm paying the depts my parents owed before they passed. "I answered with a faint smile on my face as I reminisced about my loving parents.
"And being in that job helps with your payment.? "She asked.
"Yeah... I'm able to make a hundred thousand dollars a week. "
"You know if you need help you can always ask us, you know we're always willing to help. "She said as she gripped my hands softly.
"No Cassie... I didn't want to bother you. "I said shaking my head.
"You know we're always willing to help out. "
"I know... I'll come to y'all when the time's right... Well then I'll take my leave. "I said as a got up to go back to my room.
"You're talking to Havana tomorrow.. Yeah?. "She asked as I opened the door.
"Yeah.. Probably. "
"Good night.? "
"Yeah.. Good night. "I said as I closed the door and left.
To be continued....