The month before coming to Ralan, Lucian had used every chance he could get to practice combat.
Time he could practice with Kair was not much so he had used the soldiers and knights to duel against. Not as Vencian, though. Vencian can never appear weak in front of his people at least.
The more he fought, the more he realized he was not as weak as he had thought while escaping from the monastery or when fighting Osrick. He could forgive himself for once when fighting Osrick. The strain from pulling the illusion to distract the guards and escaping held him back a lot.
But when he was ambushed in the monastery which resulted in the death of Larik and Talor, he just stood frozen like a child.
Forgiveness had come easier then. It was ignorance, that he had no experience fighting so he couldn't do anything.
