???:"what have i done?"
A man,clenching his head so asked mournfully.On his seat he sat,lying back on a chair pulling on his cyan blue hair angrily.One hand on the table clenched just as tight or even tighter.
In the midst of night his cyan hair glew vibrantly.
He felt anger,unsurmountable anger along with unlift-able despair.
But the anger he possessed was not towards others but himself.Scratch that,there were two other individuals—more so two groups of individuals that he so detested.
???:"*sigh*"
Sighing the man placed both his hands on the table and opened his eyes to reveal cyan blue orbs that matched his cyan blue hair.
???:"this is not what i wanted!"
The man—Ninita remedy,gritted his teeth and glared into nothingness.
He hired felt to steal that emblem so he could save some people,some nobles from being killed or used as experimentation guinea pigs.But now instead,he doomed the entirety of the slums into damnation.
And there was none other to blame but him.
First and foremost they would most likely head towards felt's home as she was most probably spotted whilst she sought out the emblem,which would mean they could have the information required to gather intel about her and...eliminate her to get the emblem back.
So thought Ninita with the lack of his normal fanfare.
After all,how could he when he was the cause for the massacre that would occur sooner or later.
Ninita:"damn them!"
Thought out loud Ninita,indignantly.
Those bastards are not illiterate enough to not be aware of the fact that felt had most probably selled it already,and so they are to
interrogate her about their whereabouts,although it could mean i could be identified,i more so fear for what would happen to the rest who are involved and from what i over heard they are to also kill everyone or anyone in the slums,all that they can so that they can test the new mabeast they have created.
Thinking forward i should have expected such consequences,it is due to the lack of foresight.
Opening a cupboard and searching inside for close to a minute,ninita brought out a gold coloured semi-sphere attached to a brown star like plane on flat side whilst showing the perfectly smoothened and curvatured side to all.
The golden semi-circle held the image of a horn carved into it,a mabeast horn and the plane which it was attached to had four points in the north,south and east,west directions within it's respective.
They are called the lumos corporation.
A mabeast creation and selling business corporation ,banned in all countries and a major component of the underground and their power.
He held it close to his head,not to find warmth but to tackle regret.
If i warn them,they might survive,but.....
His face soon morphed into a grimace,wrinkling his beautiful face into a more grotesque one.
.....If they find me i might die.
An image of one person came to his mind without a concrete reason.
....forgive me Natsuki subaru.
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He woke up with a start.
His expression was one of haunting as he scopped his surroundings.
I'm back....?
And so he soon found out he was back at felt's den.He wondered if he had dreamnt all of that.but despite it being a possibility,the dream was simply too real to be shrugged off.
He gripped tightly to the cloth he had in his hands to control his emotions.
Wait a minute cloth?
Within his grasp was indeed the dress he meant to give felt,but one of his shaking hands were holding onto an incomplete one and the other had a sewing needle.
He was about to sew the final thread.
Final thread? But i already finished it in the morning!..huh?
He had finished the dress and also showed it to felt in the afternoon.either way he couldn't leave it at the end so he sewed the final thread once again and threw it to the side.
He looked back to see if his hunch was true and lo and behold,instead of the black of night his eyes were assaulted by the yellowish-white of the morning rays.
How is it that it was morning?,perhaps he fell asleep and all of that was a dream.
Confusion was filling him to the brim,the thought of felt's death even if a dream,haunted him along with the blasphemous and revolting thought of his own de—.
Subaru:"blergh!!"
—ath which caused him to vomit out his own inner content,his face was grotesquely wrinkled and his eyes were blood shot.
The vomited stomach content destroyed his bed cushioning and gasping pathetically he stood up to only fall backwards once again.
Yeah maybe let's not think about.....that.
Thankfully the gross liquid did not land any where near felt's dress.for a moment he cursed himself before rechecking the dress and putting it in the same bag as he did once before.
So saying it like that reminds me of time travel anime and those game commentaries..or i guess playthroughs..gameplay? Eh what ever.
As there was no water to clean the blankets he could only sigh and fold it and place it outside.
Taking the bag containing the dress he so artfully made he stood and exited out of the tent,en route to the loot house.
Wait...i know this sounds crazy but what if it was just that?
He walked slowly,pondering about the un-explained memories he with held.
Time travel,is it really what happened? Did i time travel?
Unbeknownst to subaru,as he walked forward following the path to the loot house,many people passing by gave him weird looks.
Wait! So thats my secret ability! Ha! I was actually almost convinced that i didn't have any...hm? Why are they looking at me like that?
Subaru in the midst of thoughts noticed the looks he was being given and some children were even avoiding him with fearful eyes.
What.....
I-I know i have scary eyes but they aren't that scary you know! Damn brats!
And so subaru again started hypothesising the chance of having and capabilities of his secret ability.
Though saying it's....time travel is a bit wrong since it seems to function like a video game restart button...afte—so the save point is me knitting the final thread huh? Neat and cool.
Oh theres the house.
With another turn he was finally nearing the loot house.
So wait every thing that happened yesterday is erased.....
He finally reached the door to the loot house...but didn't knock.
So all of that about sister and playing doesn't exist?
He soon realised what his restart meant,all the things he said and the playing with felt was erased and forgotten.
He wanted to cry.
It was only a single day that was gone but he cherished it like no other in this world because he was accepted as a family by both rom and felt.
He wanted to cry.
But what hurt worse was the fact the he di—
Subaru:"No."
He wanted to cry.
But maybe what actually hurt worse was realising that he let felt to d—
Subaru:"no...please."
He wanted to cry.
He let her d—
Subaru:"no no no."
He wanted to cry.
And soon after her he met his own dem—
Subaru:"no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no."
He wanted to cry.
Clutching his head he said in denial.
And in the middle of his own hand-made insanity the door opened within it's own violation.
And out of it came felt.
Felt:"i don't know old man,it is afternoon already and he hasn't come here yet so i'm gonna go and—oh bro yo—"
Felt,concerned for subaru,exited out of the loot house to go back and check on him.
But as soon she located him infront of the door a worried expression was etched onto her face.
Felt:"hey big bro you good?"
She asked worriedly.
Big bro?
Confusion,he could feel it but for some reason he wasn't too confused as if he already knew why felt called him 'big bro' or why she was worried, so it wasn't that what he was confused about.
But as he looked into the eyes of felt, he found the reason for all the questions plaguing him.
Because in those eyes he saw the reflection of his own face.
Wrinkled,darkened,suffered,fearfull and ugly. most of all what he saw was the face of a troubled man.
Oh...i guess i did know.
As such he was forced to realise.
Realise what his heart was telling him that he wanted to deny so much,unfortunately his eyes betrayed him and gouged into him the truth.
He....
....Natsuki subaru had died.
....wanted to cry
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Felt:"seriously big bro are you good?"
Asked felt,concerned.
Subaru:"i'm fine felt....just a really bad nightmare."
Felt:"what kind of nightmare did you have!?,weren't you awake when i left? Is that why your so late?"
Rubbing his head with barely contained lethargy,subaru replied to felt.
Subaru:"no,yes...but i was late because i was thinking about the dream so much that i didn't even notice the time fly by and walked too slowly."
Though his words seemed sincere felt didn't really trust them.
Felt:"old man rom can make a better excuse then that."
Jokes on you i wasn't lying!
Subaru:"yeah,yeah i know.First of all what is it with the 'big bro' huh felt?"
Slyly,subaru asked felt,for which felt was a bit flustered before sticking her tongue out and taking the bag subaru brought which contained her dress and ran into a room with slight thumps of the wood and shut the door roughly.
Subaru:"how the hell did she know about that of all things?"
He sighed tiredly,despite what ever the hell he was saying to them,he was not fine.
He knew for a fact what he experienced wasn't a dream and the fact of the matter is that it could have been a premonition.Then if that is the case.....
.....I should be able to save our selves from the coming death.
He didn't know Who or What could be the reason for their death but he sure as knew the particular reason though.
That dog...or what ever canine it could have been,was camping at the den so if we avoid going there then we should be okay.Hey,wait a minute,if i said the dog was the reason in the first place and i said that i didn't know what it was then doesn't that mean that i don't know the reason as well!?....
I'm getting side-tracked aren't i? I should seriously find a way to stop doing that,like seriously is this my character trait or something? If it is then it sure is annoying!
Rom:"hey kid,wanna talk about that nightmare of yer's?"
Interrupting him,old man rom asked such a question..
Subaru wondered if old man rom would even listen to him and after thinking thoroughly and quickly he concluded that not telling him would be the correct choice,after all such a gift being secret would probably be cool to reveal later,though it would have been cooler if it was a secret identity though.Maybe he would try it some other time.
So he decided to try another option,guiding them vaguely with fear.
Heh! I'm a genius,i can easily impress any girl with these smarts! But then why didn't a single girl notice me back then!?
(AN:why indeed.)
Shaking his head he dispelled such thoughts before answering old man rom.
Subaru:"meh don't worry about it....actually please do,it was too scary."
Rom:"ya really don't have even a bit of pride in you, do ya?."
Subaru:"i was just being honest you know!"
Sighing he turned towards old man rom and looked at him gravely before moving his mouth.
Subaru:"fine.But you will listen to me and do what i say,alright?"
Rom:"yeah,yeah just don't piss ye'r pants."
Subaru:"the hell! And you call me prideless!"
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As he explained the contents of his supposed 'dream' old man rom's grew dark,and by the time he was at felt's death old man was directly at him whilst gritting his teeth.
After he told the complete dream to old man rom,rom seemed to be thinking about something.
After pondering for a bit old man rom stood up and grabbed his cmgiant club and towered over subaru.
Subaru leaned back to get some distance between his and old man rom's faces.
I knew he would react like this,damn it.
As subaru was about to open his mouth a giant finger stopped him from doing so while the sound sushing followed after.
Old man rom:"kid.tell me right now.....are after my granddaughters life?."
He was already expecting suspicion from rom,after all what subaru had detailed was far to specific to harbor trust.
But what rom had told subaru struck a chord in him.It didn't seem like rom was suspicious,no.It was like he was already sure but was asking for confirmation.
And that,that made him furious!
He saw felt die,he himself died.
When he first realised that he was in another world he was excited,but after experiencing that horrible night from the time he returned to now infront of old man rom,Natsuki subaru was suffering.
No matter how quick,no matter how what happened was erased,no matter how alive he is now.
He remembered.
He remembered and ravaged his own mind of the ways to help felt,to save felt.and now,the other person he wanted save was looking at him like he was an enemy to kill.Ready to pounce and smash his head in.
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Old man rom was cautious.
He was cautious of the man infront of him.
He introduced himself as Natsuki subaru and came into his and felt's lives in the most flashy manner.He was a respectable man and Rom started to even think of him as a grandson,with how felt and subaru always quarrelled like siblings it was soon to be but it was also because subaru was a fun and enjoyable person to be around.
Rom thought of the boy just as he thought of felt.
Too young,would need a guardian to look after.After all even in the negotiations with ninita,old man rom detected the man's business attitude whereas subaru did not even take notice.
And today that same kid informed him of a dream where he and felt were killed.
There was obviously more to it than it just being a dream,but to get a clear idea of subaru's thoughts and reliability old man rom pretended as though he thought of subaru as his enemy.
And right as he asked the question 'are you after my grand daughter's life' the child's eyes changed drastically.
The senpaku eyes that already seemed to be in an ever present glare that softened when looking at felt and rom was now shining with a great amount of rage.
Old man rom was surprised by this,he could see the potential of such eyes.Even in his past such a sight was probably never found except on his own,perhaps Subaru's eyes were even fiercer than his.If used correctly it could make even the fiercest of creatures whimper and simper.
And then he spoke out.
Subaru:"oi old man."
He glared at old man rom with clear intent.
Subaru:"why the f**k would you think that! How in god's name would i want to even hurt some one that ithink of asasister!"
Those words were enough.
Old man rom officially branded subaru as his grandson.
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giving out an hearty chuckle Old man rom broke subaru out of his enraged status to one of confusion.
Old man rom:"alrighty then kid! Make sure to take good care of us!"
Whilst laughing whole heartedly old man rom didn't notice subaru still stuck in his confused
state.
Subaru:"what?"
And both of them remained ignorant of the now dressed felt who stood still and watched on at the scene with confusion far surpassing even subaru's.
Felt:"what the hell...."