Huo Chen had a strong desire for exclusivity and control, but there were few things that he could have and few things that really belonged to him.
He'd lived for 30 years, from living day and night in that room when he was child to his solitary teens, and to now, where he had nothing that was truly his.
His two hands were empty, unable to grasp or keep anything. Now he had given up on trying to hold tightly to anything. Regardless of who it was, in this world that had never treated him with goodwill, he... didn't even want to hold onto himself.
But now, Huo Chen felt that his possessiveness towards Lin Yuan had reached its pinnacle. He couldn't wait to eat this person to fill his starving stomach.
Only in this way, could Lin Yuan always be his.
Lin Yuan...
Huo Chen looked at the young man in his arms and realized that he remembered this person so clearly. Every inch of him was engraved into his eyes, into his heart.
His broken body had long been immersed in Lin Yuan.
[Di! Congrats host, the villain's blackening value has decreased to 30%.]
Lin Yuan was very happy to hear the system prompt. When he was about to talk to 521, Huo Chen suddenly pinched his chin and kissed him fiercely.
The man aggressively bit the young man's lips like he had been starving and thirsty for a long time.
Lin Yuan felt a little bit of pain, but along with the pain there was also an indescribable pleasure, and he gradually became addicted to it. His eyes were layered with a teary fog, and he looked at Huo Chen obediently and softly. His whole body excluded a kind of meekness that allowed him to taste freely.
His surroundings flipped as Huo Chen pressed Lin Yuan onto the sofa. Huo Chen's body was on top of him and he breathed heavily. He stroked Lin Yuan's lips, and the backlight made his facial features sink into the shadows, looking more profound.
"Lin Yuan..."
"Sui Sui..."
He repeated Lin Yuan's name and his favorite nickname, and then whispered seductively into Lin Yuan's ear: "I'm the same, I'll only kiss Sui Sui. Did you like how I kissed you? Did it feel nice?"
Lin Yuan was still panting, because Huo Chen had kissed him too hard. When Huo Chen said this, Lin Yuan was stunned.
Huo Chen said he'd only kiss him.
Lin Yuan was a little flustered for some reason, and he didn't dare look straight at Huo Chen. His hands on the sofa scratched the surface nervously. He secretly glanced at Huo Chen and nodded gently: "I liked it."
The eyes of the young man were always clean and pure, but at this time, there was something more. Something more charming.
Huo Chen smiled, and the gloominess in his eyes disappeared, turning light: "I also like to kiss you like this."
Lin Yuan shyly encircled the man's neck and rubbed against it intimately. This was his favorite thing to do, and was his favorite to express closeness. He said softly: "Huo Chen, you can't lie to me."
Then he leaned next to Huo Chen's ear, and whispered quickly: "Feels good."
Huo Chen wasn't sure if Lin Yuan said this out of the same desire to monopolize, but he considered it so.
He lowered his head to kiss the young man's lips again. He licked and gnawed on the soft red meat, and the movements of his hands didn't stop. Lin Yuan felt really good being kissed and kneaded, and he completely melted between Huo Chen's fingers.
Huo Chen noticed something and separated their lips and tongues. He looked down at the young man who was hit by his instincts.
He was still so pure he didn't know how to relieve himself except for grinding a few times. Huo Chen smiled and licked Lin Yuan's ear and whispered: "Sui Sui, do you want to feel better?"
Lin Yuan didn't understand and looked at him in confusion: " Feel better?"
Huo Chen said lightly: "Sui Sui, I want to..." Considering that Lin Yuan might not understand, he used a phrase the other party would absolutely get.
Roll in the sheets.
This phrase shocked Lin Yuan and he completely sobered up. He sat up and shook his head unhappily: "No, I don't want to roll in the sheets with you. Didn't we say on the second day of marriage that we wouldn't? I already swore not to do it with you, did you forget?"
It was all because of bringing up rolling in the sheets that the blackening value rose so much. It wasn't easy for the blackening value to fall to 30%, who knows if after rolling in the sheets with Huo Chen, maybe it would roll back up to 40%? Or maybe even up to 50%?
Anyways, he won't roll in the sheets in this lifetime.
Huo Chen completely forgot about this.
A self-inflicted tragedy.
Huo Chen tasted regret for the first time. If it was possible, he wanted to go back to that day and make himself shut up at that time. How could he let his wife make that kind of promise?
Lin Yuan had never rejected himself like this, and Huo Chen had displeasure written all over his face. But he knew that he deserved it. If he wanted to be more intimate with his little partner and do those close things, he had to change the other's mind.
Huo Chen hugged him and gently touched his still warm neck: "Sui Sui, can I apply to delete that day?"
Lin Yuan blinked doubtfully: "Delete it?"
Huo Chen put the other's hand on his cheek and rubbed it in attachment and kissed the palm of the other's hand: "I did something wrong that day, and I said things that I shouldn't have said. Sui Sui, can we forget it?"
Lin Yuan felt that he couldn't forget the despair of seeing the continuously rising blackening value. He shook his head: "I can't forget it, I remember it very clearly."
521, who had been watching them kissing, also whispered: "521 also remembers clearly. Senior, you must not roll in the sheets with the mission target or the blackening value will rise."
Lin Yuan agreed: "Don't worry, I won't roll in the sheets with my husband."
Huo Chen really wanted to hit his past self. He changed his tactics: "Sui Sui, we're partners right?"
Lin Yuan nodded: "Yes, you're my husband and I'm your wife."
Huo Chen smiled gently, and he looked as gorgeous as a flower: "Exactly, but when we just got married, we didn't know each other at all. We had no emotional foundation, like strangers. If at that time, I suddenly kissed you, you definitely wouldn't like it."
"But now it's different. My relationship with Sui Sui has improved. We sleep together, hold hands, hug, and kiss. I like Sui Sui, really, really like, and I want to do what husband and wives do."
Huo Chen gently cupped Lin Yuan's face and kissed his eyes and lips.
"Sui Sui, those words aren't correct anymore, so Sui Sui should forget them. You shouldn't remember what I said before, remember what I say now. I like being with you and I want to be closer to Sui Sui and do something more intimate than kiss. Don't you want to?"
Lin Yuan hesitated and felt that Huo Chen was right. Back then, they just got married and didn't know each other. It was indeed strange to suddenly mention rolling in the sheets with each other. But now it was different, just like Huo Chen said, their relationship was better.
But the lingering shadow of the blackening value was hard to forget, so he had to discuss with 521: "What should I do? 521, my husband is right! But I'm still scared."
521 nodded and said seriously: "Senior, 521 also agrees with the mission target, but I am also scared."
Thinking about it, 521 said: "Then, senior, you should ask the mission target if he'll be unhappy if you two roll in the sheets."
Lin Yuan hummed and asked Huo Chen: "Husband, let me ask you, if we roll in the sheets, will you be unhappy?"
Huo Chen was slightly stunned, and he remembered that Lin Yuan had said from the very beginning that he wanted him to be happy, and he was still the same now. He suddenly felt an indescribably sourness gushing out of the depths of his heart that exploded in his body, and his cracks and fragments were being filled and repaired by Lin Yuan.
He reached out and hugged Lin Yuan, leaning over more tired and worn out than he'd ever shown. He closed his eyes and with every fiber of his being, he hugged the person who might really forever belong to him.
A young voice, small and careful, of a child who had never been loved, held the only gift of his own.
A child's world was very small, and Huo Chen's world was also small.
In other words, that skinny and fragile boy never really grew up. Time passed, and his body grew, but his heart had always been trapped in that room.
Outside that door was a thick, invisible wall that prevented him from opening the door. His arms were too skinny and bruised. He couldn't open the door where his mother died, just like how his mother never made it out and rotted in the end.
He was always like this, even with the passage of time. But when Lin Yuan appeared, he smashed a hole into that wall and let warmth and light come in.
"Happy. As long as I'm with you, I'm very happy."
Lin Yuan heard something wrong from Huo Chen's voice, but he just raised his hand habitually and patted the man's back in comfort.
"Me too, I'm very happy when I'm with you. Huo Chen, don't be unhappy, I'll always accompany you. Not only accompanying you during meals or sleeping or when you're sick, I'll always be with you."
Huo Chen wanted Lin Yuan's 'always', he longed for it, but he was also afraid. He held Lin Yuan tightly and said quietly: "Lin Yuan, you have to do as you say."
"Don't forget, and you can't lie to me."
"Lin Yuan, I have had nothing for a long time. I only have this life of mine, I'll give it to you, okay?"
"Take it. Don't lose it. Put it away carefully, okay?"